Ive never felt so discriminated in my life as ive felt today because of my tattoos. Im used to this kinds of stuff everyday but today was different. My Mom asked me to go with her to her doctors appointment somewhere in Sucat. Beside the clinic is a church that I decided go hear mass since I knew Mom would take a while. I remember feeling excited seeing a beautiful, air conditioned church where my son and I were asked to sit at the far end. On a monoblock. To me that was nothing. I would still kneel even if I dont have cushions on my knees and even if I have to do that while carrying Bonbon because he was asleep. I knew at this time that a lot of people were looking at me, some were staring while praying and it didnt bother me at all because as Ive said Im used to it. But during the peace be with you moment nobody looked at our direction. The lady who was a few seats away from us whom I know for a fact was staring at me whenever she can didnt bother showing us her smile or nod, she stopped when her head was about to turn to our direction and had this hard face looking up at the altar. Again, that to me is nothing. It happens and I am not expecting anything. Bonbon at this time is awake, kissed me and said peace be with you Inay, I love you. Everything else is perfectly fine until a church lady came up to me and asked me if were going to receive the HOLY communion. I said yes. Then she asked me to wear this white sheet. Asked me to wear it like a blanket. There were a few seconds of silence. A lot of things were going through my head. I decided to take it if that means receiving the holy communion. It was a long line and while walking on our way back to the seat, everybody was looking at me. I felt uncomfortable being under that sheet, singled-out, judged and as If I dont belong in my own religion. As soon as I get to my knees I cant help but asked God why that feeling has to come to me. But instantly, there was a feeling of relief when I realized I am not the one sinning while praying.
Posted on: Sun, 25 May 2014 13:37:01 +0000
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