JOY. You were there for me when I was hurt and weak. You helped change my life. Your family and the horses have helped build me up and made me know what love and happiness is. Thanks to you I found my Inner Awesome. These beautiful words were in a letter I received late last week from a girl I spent 8 weeks with during a session at Discovery Horse last summer. This from a girl who hated being there the first day and was terrified of horses, literally terrified. Humbling and so freaking inspiring. Last week I saw her for the first time in 4 months. The residential facility she is staying at has contracted our team to work with them yearly, doing four, 8 week sessions with their youth. This is huge for us. Remember that youth revolution I was talking about . . .its still going. And, the school district is writing a grant so that the horses and I will get to work with an even larger group of youth. What does this mean, how do I allow all this amazing goodness to flow with ease around me. Me . .who for so many years felt unworthy of such joy. I know my friends and colleagues would tell me I earned it and have worked hard and am deserving of all this joy. And I agree, I have worked hard. But I am not so sure about deserving it. Deserving feels like a tricky word to me . . . we all deserve joy. The question is: Do you allow the joy to enter your soul, even in the face of it disappearing every now and then? Its risky, joy and happiness. It is risky because there is no guarantee and sometimes it feels safer to never have it then it is to have it and then suffer the loss when it disappears. These kids have a lot to teach me about joy. And I keep telling myself Sara, if you cant allow joy how can you expect those you serve to allow it in! And so, I push on, embracing the joy, smiling big, taking the risk and embracing all that life has to offer. Good and bad. And I work hard to find joy in the small things, the blessings in my life. My hope is that I model that for those around me. Tell me . . .where does joy fit into your life?
Posted on: Sat, 10 Jan 2015 22:02:10 +0000
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