James, I know exactly what that is like. I liken it to being caught between two worlds, two belief systems, two sets of rules, many types of people; and no one playing fair or by the same set of rules. It is exhausting and anxiety can turn to anguish quicker than one thinks. Leading to many aberrant behaviors, dysfunctional relationships, health problems, mental health issues, restlessness and many other maladies. I used to be that person many years ago. What changed it for me, is I stopped the destructive conduct, became more introspective locating and changing those behaviors I could, relying on a spiritual Higher Power who I call Jehovah; and essentially allowing him to de-clutter my life. Today my spirit and soul are free to trace and re-trace old and new steps trying to find lessons I might have missed; and recognizing new ones as they are presented. Making it easier in every aspect of my life. But the best part for me, is I take little seriously or too heart. Because I understand that much of lifes lessons are at the hands of those who are in spiritual and soulful torment. Being tossed and turned like the waves in a great storm, people are searching and I have to avoid the collateral damage. Yet be mindful enough if I allow others to control my moods, temperament and personality; I might very well return to that previous from whence I came. And that is not anything I would wish on anyone.
Posted on: Wed, 19 Mar 2014 14:18:13 +0000
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