Joy in the journey just another excerpt. After so many restless nights my dad is finally resting comfortably. The morphine is helping. He looks so peaceful although its difficult to sit and watch its easier than the last several nights. Joy I have to share my mom reasoned that all of his efforts to get up out of bed to go home were not his earthly home but his heavenly home. He also kept telling us at night girls hurry up in the bathroom were going to be late for church. I heard cocker spaniels. My dad used to joke when we irritated him that he should have had all cocker spaniels. Lol and then he would laugh like crazy. When I heard that last night I laughed and cried at the same time. His communication this morning to my mom was I love you with my whole heart. She said I love you to and I will stay with you until... I will join you again . I was sleeping in the lounge but that shows and incredible amount of love and extreme faith. We can only continue to hope to emulate that. He at times I see him with a smile and I can only imagine what he is dreaming about. I know someday he will tell me. My son and future daughter in law came up to see grandpa. I know he is so happy for them and was so excited about the engagement. My selfishness only wishes he could be there for their weddings only because his Elvis Presley impressions were the best. Every family member had the luck of uncle Ronnie and dad singing and swinging his hips. Lol. In heaven I know theres a dance floor and microphone but the great thing he will sing like an angel. That is joy. There are so many ways to find peace I know that the moment happens I will wish for things to be different but I fully know in my heart that he will be an angel. I may not see him but I will feel his breath on my neck , I will still see his smile in my mind and there will be small signs from heaven letting us know that he has not left us but hes waiting until we can be together again. Theres a new country song that says something like we all want what we dont have but the words go on to say but I have all I need referring to the people I love. It seems to come on every time I get in the car to go home to shower I think God is always thinking of me. Letting me know that I have it all . My faith, my family and I was shown through my mom and dad. I am grateful for both of them and the immeasurable gifts they have given. I pray for my baby sister Brenda Novak . Yes no matter how old you are she will always be the baby and from little on she was my dads tag a long I know this is really hard on her just because of those reasons. She continued to hope for more time. I love you baby sister. We will always hold each other up. To all of my family and friends be happy for all of the joy in your life. Trust me there is plenty of it even when times are hard. I love you all always always Jona
Posted on: Wed, 26 Nov 2014 23:52:47 +0000