(Just another one of my thoughts being written on Facebook but this time geared to family) Whats the point of happiness if you cant share it with anyone? You know what...a stranger once gave me advice. He told me I was too nice and caring for others. He told me that I should be more selfish. You know what the best part is, he was right! I spend too much time worrying for others that I neglected myself! Ever since I decided to percieve things in a more selfish tone, everything has begun falling into my hands. What I want from the future is to help others, but it means nothing if people stand in my way. Ive always been too understanding and would generally wait but I have this sensational desire to lead. However, I cant help others if no one gives me the chance and thats why I started making my own chances and calling my own demands.Sorry family! I am the youngest blood in our family, you cant blame me for being selfish ;) I want to have a dream job I love, I want to be richer than you lol sorry, I want a bigger house, a loving family, an awesome car and most importantly- I want to change lives by simply following my dreams. I am grateful for being born last because I have waited,listened, and watch everything you guys have done. I dont have to repeat your mistakes and I certainly want to be the child you all look up to as I once was till -you know- I started getting bad grades sorry about that too. I also never talked to you guys and kept a majority of my problems/feelings to myself because I felt I could fix it alone, that really backfired. Im generally happy nowadays. From now on, it will only be me and the textbooks and if I have free time, Ill spend it with friends/family. I dont want to live a simple life anymore with a steady job...I know thats the Santana way around here lol. My dreams will not be accomplished within a few years but I want you to be patient with me. I WILL succeed in life! I just need you guys to trust me on this. We dont really speak to each other about what goes on in our lives-well I dont anyways ;P but Ill try to change that. Im asking you to believe in me. I want our name to mean something greater. We all have a purpose in life and you guys along with the teachers at my elementary school have written it for me. To make others happy, whether its one significant other or the entire world. I wish to make mom and dad proud too, even though I never talk to them all that much regarding my progress in life except being the occasional rebellious teenager lol. Im not a teenager anymore and with school starting soon, Im ready to accept my role. I dont just want you to believe in me, but in yourself. I hope all of you are pursuing your dreams and not wasting it away, spending days and nights regretting it. It was tough going to school everyday...overweight, no longer with a high GPA, coming home with an angry parent shouting about my report card, going to school where I felt like my friends werent even my real friends. Everything has changed now and that started with a bold little statement. Brother and sister, we all endured great emotional pain in our lives...from the death of one our sibling to a failure of a once well ambitioned dream. This whole time I spent wondering about what others thought of me, but the true problem was I believed I was a failure to you guys-my real family.I need to know now...do you believe in me? All I ask is a little faith, not from the lord, not from my friends, not from strangers but from you guys, my brothers and sisters. I wont let any of you down again!
Posted on: Sun, 17 Aug 2014 09:47:53 +0000
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