LONG POST WARNING***I’m writing this as a final post for a while. This is something that I need to do. Maybe some of you will see yourself in these words too. I’ve been struggling with my relationships lately with friends, family and Christ. I find myself found yet lost, happy yet sad, rescued but forgotten. I could go on and on with descriptions of the many of emotions I’ve been going through. I could not answer why I continued to struggle with these when I “thought” I loved my life. I went to Church last night, and I heard a sermon that I believe will be a “life” changer for me. Boy do I have work to do. Tears ran down my cheeks as I heard the words that I didn’t want to hear. Words that I knew God had led me to, words that were answering my prayers. The sermon was on social media, FB, Instagram and Pinterest. He also preached on putting up false pretenses to please the masses and losing sight of who you really are. Now I’m really putting myself out there, but I need to. He talked about the need for approval and acceptance. The need to measure up, to compare, to envy, to judge all based on the posts on FB or Pinterest. How could you not feel lost, disappointed, sad, when you’re longing for what others have or do? He stressed about instead of comparing your life to those of others, or spending your time seeing what others are doing, Why don’t you contemplate your own life and adventure to see what God can do for you? I am so guilty. I know I am. I had to ask myself, do I do things because they are the right things, or do I do them for acceptance from others. Would I still do them even if no one was going to see them? Would I be ok if I took a picture just because I want to save that moment, rather than take 20 takes trying to get the best one to be “liked” on FB? When we compare our unfiltered lives to a world cropped and edited where everything is perfect, were left with thoughts of misery and frustration. The struggle to know who we are in the world without compromising who we are in Christ is a battle. I realized that the only person keeping me from winning that struggle is ME. I need some time to refocus, redirect, and reconnect with my husband and with myself. Talking to my friend this morning, I even said, I’m going to have to talk to my husband in the car! I’ve become socially addicted, addicted to approval of others, addicted to the constant feed of praise or well wishes, WHEN DID IT BECOME IMPORTANT TO TAKE PICTURE OF OUR FOOD AND NAIL POLISH? (Both of which I’m guilty) Why do I feel the need to track myself all over Texas and think you need to know about it? I have to admit, it feels great to hear people say positive things. But more importantly, I need to feel good about doing all things in my life and I need to ensure that they are in line with where God intends me to be. I find myself over booked, overwhelmed, and out of line with what I believe to truly be important. One thing I love about FB is the support when you need it. So I had to ask myself how did I use to get that. I called someone…I emailed someone…I wrote a letter…call it Old School! So I’m disconnecting from social media and computer time. For a while anyway. I need to know that I’m using all of this for healthy and good reasons, not to judge others, not to envy, not to put on a only a part of me that is the Wonder Woman I try to be. Someone sent me a quote that I think I will post on my desk. It states... If I really want an unrushed life, I must underwhelm my schedule so God has room to overwhelm my soul. Need I say more? I’m going to miss the connection I have built with so many on FB, but if you want to reach me I’m here. Email is marlindamerryman@yahoo and my number is 832-275-6412. If you want to invite me somewhere, you’re going to have “old school” it for awhile. I’ll be disabling FB on Sunday, what an appropriate day. A day of rest…a day of reflection and a day of God’s word. Wish me luck…
Posted on: Thu, 14 Aug 2014 18:52:44 +0000
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