Last Summer: I very vividly recall weeping, and begging God to give me my baby back. Chase had been developing normally, and then suddenly he slipped away. No more eye contact, no more playing with toys, no more babbling. New odd behaviors emerging, like opening and closing cabinets obsessively, rubbing his head on the carpet, finding flat objects and flipping them over and over. It is like a giant fog came and consumed my son, removing him from this world and placing him in another world, where he could not understand us, nor could we understand him. This was the baby I was sure would not struggle so much, and I was sure of it because his first year of life had been so right. I begged God to not let this be happening, and hoped for a miracle. God IS answering my prayers. I didnt get an instant miracle of a boy who was suddenly back to normal. But through our prayers God directed us to information we didnt have. He united us in our drive to figure out what went wrong, and to fix it. Chase has a long way to go, and he is by no means where he ought to be. But that fog is gone. No more living in his own world, oblivious to us. No more self-stimulatory behaviors with cabinets, flat objects, or anything else. Even with no verbal language yet, Chase can now find very clear and specific ways to communicate any need or want he has. Even as I was typing this post, he came and got me, took me to the back door and asked me to open it for him, so he could play outside. He wants to be with us. He wants to engage with us, and play with us. He has toys he is interested in. He looks me in the eye. He responds to commands. Today, Chase more closely resembles the baby I knew in his first year, than the boy who became lost after his first Birthday. He has come very far in a very short period of time. I praise God for hearing my cries, and for the blessing of little steps that are really huge steps. I praise God for his promises, and every blessing he graciously pours out. And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O LORD, have not forsaken those who seek you. Psalm 9:10
Posted on: Tue, 29 Jul 2014 21:23:03 +0000
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