Lately life feels so busy. A good busy. Finding ways to celebrate Isabel and how she has made our world better. Nurturing our friendships and creating new ones. Trying to find a new normal. A normal that consists of going back to work teaching what I love. Helping at Romans school. Preparing to send my husband back to work. Getting the Warrior Princess Foundation up and running. Tucking our son into his sisters bed at night with her dollies because that is where he prefers to sleep, it makes him feel closer to her. Social events. Football games. Yoga. Laughing. Crying. Looks of pity. I know my life will never be the same. I lost my baby girl. Every parents worst nightmare. However, some people fail to see, fail to realize that what I was given was the most beautiful gift. I was given two children, whom I was able to carry in my womb to term, and nurse from my breast, and abundantly produce enough to help other families. I was given smiles and kisses and hugs and the most beautiful laughter. I am able to stay home and experience every moment of every day with my babies while my husband goes to work sacrificing himself to provide a magnificent and comfortable home and life. I was given a husband who loves me unconditionally in my good times and in my bad, who understands and respects me, who holds me up when I am down and puts me on a pedestal. I was given the best friends who are so deeply engrained in my DNA it is like we have always been together. I was given two years of LIFE with my magical daughter, Isabel, our warrior princess. There is no reason to pity me or look at our family with sadness because what we have is so much richer than you can ever imagine. Am I sad? Yes, of course I am sad. I cant hold my daughter or hug her or give her kisses and I will miss her every day of my life but beyond that I am grateful. I am grateful for the two healthy years of life Isabel had. For all of the moments she slept on my chest and all the hugs and kisses she gave me and for every moment I had with her. I am grateful my daughter experienced life! She ran and danced and jumped on the bed, colored on the walls, swam and even skinny dipped! She lived and loved more in her two years than most people will in their long lives. I am grateful that she knew how much she was loved and to be able to tell us that she loved us. I am grateful for the friends who have been brought into our life and for every new stone placed on our path. It makes me smile to think of Isabel and to talk about her. She is a beautiful beacon of light, an angel that lived amongst us and I am her mommy, yesterday, today and always. I challenge you when you wake up tomorrow to focus on gratitude all day. What is it that you are grateful for? For me, it always starts with my breath.
Posted on: Wed, 08 Oct 2014 00:07:33 +0000
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