Lately, things in my life have been hectic. Trying to get by, trying to afford things far out of my price ability. And it has been affecting me, shoving the negative thoughts straight into my head at force far greater than the gravity of the Earth. Jobless still, trying to avoid being homeless again, and starving. Trying to afford medicine and Clinic visits. Dealing with hostility from individuals. Broken technology, self doubts, fear and anxiety. The possibility that I may very well be bipolar. But, but in spite of all that, somethings, I just need to always remember. . I was looking at myself in the mirror, at my reflection after finishing my morning work out, and I found myself crying. Not from the weight of all the bad that has happened and still piles on top of me; but from the weight of all the good that is in my life. I have had amazing friends in the past who are still there for me. My best friend Joe, My highschool friends John, Mike, Kevin, my anime club buddies that ive made over the past year or so, Sarah, Ben, James, Onizuka. The friends who have stuck by me through rough times, Azazel, Arina, Adam, Hannah. Those who Have helped Shelter me, Kaylin, Brittney, Kenneth, Jezika, Kyle, Jordan. My friends that I have made through Conventions and the nerd community, Charlie, Zieg, Fynd, Jesse, Carley, Emily, Randi, Cecil, Sean, Edward, Mercy, Cid, Mugsy, Cayde, Krys, Anna, all the massive ammounts of others. The professionals I have met as well, Peter Pixie, Little Beard, Gel.E.Bean, Dj Infamous, Robert Collins, Eric Wile. And to newer friends as well, Evan, Celina, Justin, Jim, Naaman, Andrew. And to others who just want to help in some way. I wouldnt be here without these amazing friends, and my amazing parents, Kyle Peterson, Penny Peterson. My sister Kira, My brother David. I have been getting my health back slowly, Im getting back into shape, Im putting less unhealthy stuff in my body, drinking less soda, working out, trying to boost my confidence back up. Because I have a future. Yes I do. And its not a job, its not a career working in some industry, or company. My future is one thing. One person. The one person who matters to me more than the entire universe. Taryn Allen. She, is my future. And I am going to try my damn well hardest, to be the best I can be for her. Because, she deserves it. She deserves my best and more. She is the light I have been searching for, The part of my soul that I have been missing. I love you baby. And I love you all. All of you who have helped me, believed in me, and inspired me to be more than just me, to strive for greatness, to be a better man. thank you all.
Posted on: Thu, 24 Oct 2013 11:39:36 +0000
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