Lost artist here. Anyone can help, I would much appreciate it. Ive been drawing for three years now (Im 21 next year); over the last eight months+ Ive struggled to get more than four paintings done. Its not that Im lazy, though I do tend to play games a lot (its the thing that got me interested in concept design and painting, its also my get away from society), I feel like Ive lost my inner energy to paint. I havent found work in over a year because Im sub-par and flaky on when and what I can paint. I know its not creative block, because I have these random ideas flowing though me 24/7. It feels like am falling into a bottomless pit of despair, its the one thing I love doing, and at the moment, I cant do it at all. I would be honest and say that I have a solid understanding of all the fundamentals, yet, when I open Photoshop or use any other media to design/paint, I feel pressured, lost, almost scared because I cant seem to translate what I imagine into legible design. I almost think that the pressure to earn money from the thing I find fun and relaxing is a self destroying concept unless your naturally able to find happiness and have full on will power in everything about it. Each day I feel rustier, each day others post of Facebook and other media of their progress. I no longer feel inspired by them to learn or teach, I feel jealous, confused and angry. I couldnt care less about gratification or fame, I want to paint again, because its something I love doing... but a blank canvas is frightening.
Posted on: Sun, 02 Nov 2014 14:53:08 +0000
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