MAY TRIGGER I think a few of you will relate to this. Being able to say I am IN RECOVERY from self harm is a very proud feeling but recovery doesnt come without occasional setbacks. The mind and body is similar to a computer. Overload it and it will start to encounter blips and if these blips arent recognised quickly and resolved, it will break down. We often look at our problems and think there are people far worse off which is true but that doesnt mean that your own problems arent important, especially if they threaten your recovery. Take time to look after your mental health by watching for signs of stress and worry and work out ways to cope with these a bit at a time instead of letting them wear you down. Also your physical health has a massive impact on your mental health too so make sure you get adequate rest and see a doctor if you are physically unwell. I am not different to anyone else on here and tonight has been a long, four hour battle with self harm urges due to a mixture of recent grief of my Grandma and an ongoing stomach problem with is taking a rediculous amount of time to sort out. I actually feel quite guilty when I still get urges to self harm. I think that each time you go through it, you hope it will be the last but as with any other addiction, I suppose it takes time to overcome it completely. Sat here now, absolutely worn out from it, I am proud that I managed to fight it off once again. For those who win their battle tonight well done. For those who want to but dont quite manage it, keep trying and for those who are not ready to cope without self harm, please take care to keep yourself safe. After telling Steve what a difficult evening I have had, I commented that if I can fight a four hour battle alone then Id be great in the army. His reply was You would be far too dangerous This made me smile. We are all fighting something. Sometimes we win and sometimes we dont but we only fail if we give up trying. Jane x
Posted on: Thu, 21 Aug 2014 22:09:45 +0000