MY BELOVED ZANE of escc9 ENTERS A HEARTBREAKING BUT VERY VISCERAL HIATUS AND HIS MESSAGE ABOUT IT BRINGS TEARS IN MY EYES... BECAUSE I FEEL ACCURATELY THE SAME ABOUT WARMER CLIMES, THE AUDIENCE OF MY WORK AND WHAT IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW __________________________ Well, I guess the long journey is over, on pause, or left in some form of liminal energy to take another form. Today I am on indefinite hiatus from music, PR, art, and any aspect of Social Media. It seems like after giving birth to and fostering one of the largest musical movements thus far in this millenium, that I have given far more than I have received... and maybe that is because I never properly knew how to give, or receive for that matter. Many of you I have hurt, and you may very well have hurt me, others of you were friends and supporters in the truest sense of the word. Today I closed all social media accounts, pages, and soundcloud profiles. A few of you may be deeply saddened by this, others of you could very well give a shit as you have went on to find real meaning in life. I guess that time has came for me as well. Now I sit here, thirty years old, in perhaps the darkest most uncomfortable hour of my life with no friends or earthly possessions, only this dark dark home in which I grew up in, the glory and bane of my existence, with nothing to show for any of my efforts. Music and creativity is a passion that runs so deeply in me. With it came a desire to share and share alike, many times with that sentiment never returned. In the last ten years of my life I have been at rock bottom (several times) all the way to up to UMG headquarters and to tropical palaces in the sky. My experience has brought me considerable attention, though much of it has been far more negative than positive. Some of you I havent had contact with in many years, for one reason or another, probably more to do with your own choices, well being, and personal interests than my own. I guess I am writing this email to say that I now understand. I dont know if I can properly appologize for being so consumed, whether by a passion for advancing the arts, or demons with only one goal, that being total control and leadership over cultural and artistic realms. That is perhaps my biggest fault, is that I was unwilling and unable to give up control or influence over my peers. Some of you genuinely believed in me. You trusted me with your art, heart, and vision of a better world. I at this point want to appologize for abandoning you. Some things, too many things in my life are left unsorted. I thought that the constant hope, love, and joy of creation that I put into my works, and that all of you put into yours could triumph over the hierarchy of this machine. Now I am left with none of those sentiments: hope, love or joy and the machine and hierarchy of corporate control is more powerful than ever. After five plus years of being angry, hopeful, and ultimately pondering why no one embraced the imprint, music, and vision that we shared, the same imprint that many of the best works I have ever heard reside on, escc9, it seems that it is now in my, if not our best interest to abandon, if only to stop feeding hope and love to a community and machine that never gives anything back. Growth has came to a standstill, infact traffic to the bandcamp is almost non-existent at this point while our competitors (aural sects, equilateral, stellar cinematics, clan destine, tundra, etc) are enjoying steady growth and media attention. I am writing this email in bulk to thank all of you for what you have contributed to my life, and to apologize to those of you that I have failed or in other ways hurt. While this may be a forclosure, it is definitely not the end. When I harness the ability, and I am not in such a miserable place in my life, once some of the energy I have given returns through appropriate agents or cosmic force alone, I will reemerge to continue to try to develop a new platform and medium to advance music and the arts as is fitting and beneficial to the artist, and not a system that gives nothing back. At this point, I feel that the larger problem, beyond the platform, is the audience its self. The Internet, the listeners, fans, and artists themselves have became too needy and desperate for attention. There are no lines to distinguish producer from consumer anymore other than arbitrary sites that house almost every digital work. The consumer is more responsible for the livelihood of the product presented than the producer or imprint themselves. It saddens me, that the pusher has become more important than the product. All of our art and hearts, completely taken for granted by the endless expectations of the audience. The talent of putting ones heart and soul into a product has became a completely disposable amenity at the altar to be sacrificed to the media outlet (facebook, soundcloud, mixcloud, bandcamp, etc). My dreams in the witch house were to achieve the exact opposite, to the artist power over the medium, the way it was consumes, and the legal restrictions over creativity that keep the media titans in power. All of these companies are or have enjoyed huge profits through the sacrifice of the artist. As I see it, the organization of intelligence will lead to the monopolization of creativity. I will not allow this to happen. I at this point do not know how to counter or solve this issue, but rest assured if I can come to a point of personal satisfaction and happiness in my own personal life outside of art, I will revisit these concerns. For my own sanity, and the existence of my soul: I need to find something that can refill my reserves of love and happiness, and I am as alone and empty as I ever have been. I need to find something sustainable, something worth living for so I dont repeatedly end up in this personal hell so completely defeated. All in all, this message is to thank all of you for the chance to experience your art, and heart, and to those of you who believed we could make a difference. I will never forget those of you who were genuinely and selflessly hopeful that something larger was possible. Please continue to up hold a higher standard for art and heart, but alas, I urge all of you to find a new medium and platform to display your works. To perhaps return to the traditional avenues of the music industry until a better alternative can be agreed upon by the community. For now, this is good bye. With love and great admiration, Zane
Posted on: Wed, 08 Oct 2014 00:37:11 +0000
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