Merry post Christmas!! We lived through it! Awesome time with friends and family. Jes Gauvin made an incredible dinner with Jared Clark and we will be indeed be cooking in the new gadget again, moistest meat ever! ( OK some of you, get your minds out of the gutter... This is a family holiday) We ended up packing up dinners for Jes to deliver and exchanged gifts happily. I havent smiled like this in a few weeks, actually, quite some time. Sometimes it takes a hard time in life and the holidays (which admit it, we all really enjoy to hate them) to realize just how much people mean to us, and how much we mean to others. No matter what your relationship is, Christmas time and the holiday season (whatever faith you may believe in...... Insert here.... As its cool with me any day of the year) is when you really find out just how loving and how cruel and what assholes some people truly are. I have been blessed, even with everything going on in my life with the BEST friends, (old and new), than I ever thought I had!. I was able to play Santa early in the morning to kids I love dearly, and even if they dont know the love and caring behind those gifts, thats OK with me. They got what they wanted and needed from someone who loves them. That cannot be challenged or denied. This has been a very tough last year for me in many ways. Personal and health. But today I realize, Im still alive! I have wonderful people (and a few weirdos and rotten ones, but who doesnt??) in my life. I finally am looking forward to complete happiness again. Being me. No more worries or wondering. Spending as much time as possible with those I love dearly, and then find a beautiful home where I can and will feel at home , and am meant to be. This season, in totally non traditional Jen style, I have woken up holding no hard feelings towards anyone! I do feel bad for those I should have been, and am now helping any way I can. I no longer feel sorry for the drama, oh poor me idiocy that Ive been jumping through hoops for. People, including myself, are worth so much more than killing yourself over trying to please those who only want it when they can get it, or on their schedule. Sadly, this doesnt cover any one particular person or relationship. We live with this everyday of our lives. Whats it get us? Pain, agony, and the constant feeling of not being good enough. That will kill the YOU inside that people love. Who needs that type of control over them or to feel like that? Its sad that it took me this long to realize that. I know what Im worth, I know I have amazing family and friends. And everyone has let me know in some way or another just how important I am to their lives. Thats what matters. Even as misunderstood as I may be, I have finally seen again what I have known all along. People who lie about you, create drama, and cause nothing but chaos in your life, really have no lives themselves. As the same people agreeing with the crap they say, come back to you and say, Did you hear this...... . I for one so not want our need that in my life. My life is a wonderful, very personal, open book to myself and those I allow in. The outside doesnt matter. All I can add in closing my friends at the end of 2014 is simply...... Simplify your lives! Do what makes YOU happy. Not what you think others need to accept you. Make the rest of this year a fun, exciting, loving time! And look forward to next year being even better! As in the end my friends and those I love dearly......... Whether people love you or hate you, they will always remember you. Make a lasting impression that matters. Life is too short to live in shadows. Always remember how much youre worth, and always know that youre truly unforgettable! We all deserve that! Merry post Christmas and Happy New Year to come!
Posted on: Fri, 26 Dec 2014 17:25:30 +0000
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