More REALNESS!! Hooray!! So this morning I went on my usual run around Spring Lake that I have been doing pretty consistently for the past three and a half years. It was like I was on a hamster wheel running, running, running. All the while thinking so hard of how to figure everything out. The amount of love I had for everyone was so evident to me, but I couldnt express it most of the time for some reason. Especially to the other runners and hikers on the path. It is so symbolic. I was doing this to everyone. I would think about everything so much that I cut myself off from feeling. When I first moved to Santa Rosa I hated it here. I came from Maui and an intense experience with my twin and the kundalini life force energy. When I got here all I had was my family who I thought was completely dysfunctional and people who I assumed were mean. I would go running or for a walk and I would smile at everyone and they would just stare at me. I thought it was this place, the vineyards, wine country, everyone is a drunk. Lol. Then I just realized today since opening to this love that it was me. I was in an intense healing phase, the dark night and everyone that passed me was just a reflection of how I was feeling about myself. It wasnt how I truly felt at my core, but more so the limiting beliefs, patterns, childhood wounds I was releasing. I could barely look anyone in the eye around the running trail for so long because when I would they would reflect my inner pain right back to me, the pain I didnt even know I had! The only time I would find a small amount of solace was when I would see a bluebird. I love bluebirds!
Posted on: Wed, 27 Aug 2014 16:54:15 +0000
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