Must Read: When i got home that night as my wife served dinner,i held her and said ive got something to tell you.She sat down calmly and ate quietly.Again i observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly i didnt know how to open my mouthbut i had to let her know what i was thinking.I want a divorce.I raised the topic calmly.She didnt seem to be annoyed by my words,instead she asked me softly,Why? I avoided her question,this made her angry,she threw a chopstick and shouted at me,You are not a man! That night we didnt talk to each other,she was weeping.I knew she wanted to find out what happened to our marriage.But i could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane.I didnt love her anymore,i pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt,i drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house,car and a stake in my company.She glanced at it then tore it into pieces,the woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a complete stranger.I felt sorry for her wasted time,energy and resources but i could not take back my words for i loved Jane so dearly.Finally she cried loudly in front of me,which is what i expected to see,finally the idea of divorce has sunk in her mind and thats what i wanted.The next day i came home very late and found her writting something at the table.I didnt have supper but went straight to the bed,i was tired after a long day with Jane and fell asleep instantly. When i woke up,she was still at the table writting.I didnt care.In the morning she presented her divorce conditions,she didnt want anything from me,but needed a months notice before the divorce.She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal as possible.Her reasons were simple: Our son had his exams in a months time and she didnt want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.This was agreeable to me.But she had something more,she asked me to recall how i carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day.She requested that everyday for the months duration i carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning.I thought she was going crazy.Just to make our last days together bearable i accepted her odd request.I told Jane about my wifes conditions,she laughed loudly and thought it was absurd.no matter what tricks she applies,she has to face the divorce said Jane scornfully. My wife and i hadnt had any body contact since my divorce intentions,so when i carried her on the first day,we both appeard clumsy.Our son clapped behind us,daddy holding mommy in his arms.His words brought me a sense of pain,from the bedroom to the sitting room,then to the door,i walked over ten meters with her in my arms.She closed her eyes and softly said,dont tell our son about the divorce,i nodded,feeling somewhat upset.I put her down outside the door,she went to the bus stop and i drove alone to work.On the second day,both of us acted more easily,she leaned on my chest.I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.I realised that i hadnt looked at this woman carefully for a long time.I realised she was not young anymore,there were fine wrinkles in her face,her hair was greying! Our marriage had taken it tall on her,for a minute i wondered what i had done to her.On the fourth day,when i lifted her,i felt a sense of intimacy returning.This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to my wellbeing.On the fifth and sixth day,i realised our sense of intimacy was growing again,i didnt tell Jane about this.It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by.Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.She was choosing what to wear one morning.She tried quiet a few dresses but couldnt find a suitable one.Then she sighed,all my dresses have grown bigger.I suddenly realised she had grown thin,that was the reason i carried her more easily.Suddenly it hit me,she burried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.Subconsciously i reached out and touched her head.Our son came at that moment and said,dad,its time to carry mom out.To him,seeing his father carrying his motherhad becoma an essential part of his life.My wife gestured to our son and held him tightly and hugged him.I turned my face coz i was afraid im might change my mind on the last minute.I then held her arms,walking from the bedroom,through the sitting room,to the hallway,her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.I held her body tightly,it was just like our wedding day.But her much lighter weight made me sad,on the last day,when i held her in my arms i could hardly move a step.Our son had gone to school.I held her tightly and said,i hadnt noticed our life lacked intimacy.I drove to office.... Jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.I was afraid a delay could make me change my mind..I walked upstairs,Jane opened the door and i told her i didnt want divorce anymore.She looked at me,and touched my head.Do you have a fever? She asked,i moved her hand off my head.Sorry Jane,i said,i wont divorce,my ........
Posted on: Thu, 28 Aug 2014 18:01:11 +0000
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