My Thoughts for the Year - NEW YAWK 2014 Wow. I say that so humbly as tears roll down my face. Im in awe of life and the unexpected twists and turns it takes every single day. Im grateful that with each plot twist, I adjusted, embraced, learned, and made the most of it. My life is completely different than one year ago and yet the same. Im in a brand new city, brand new career, sort of brand new relationship (living together which always brings a newness to any relationship amongst other things) and brand new skills. I opened myself up this year to my worth. My worth and value as in my career and capabilities. I expanded my horizons. Ive taken risks and jumps and massive leaps all with my eyes closed, but my heart full of faith. Ive slipped on the health front. Allowed myself to fall back into old eating habits because of the uncertainty of everything else. That was the one constant that was always available to me and so I gravitated towards it and now Im packing an extra 12 pounds I didnt have last year. BUT!!! I just had a talk with myself and Im not waiting until the new year to deal with it. Ive refocused, recalibrated my thinking, and most importantly had a spiritual awakening regarding this physical shell we call a body. As of this morning, Ive lost 5 out of that 12 and Im on waking up each day without a diet in mind and just taking each day as an opportunity to respect, nurture, and care for my body. Thats it. Love what Ive been given and know that its a vehicle to move my spirit around in and Ive got a lot of sharing and traveling to so so this vehicle must be in tip top shape! :) Ive gotten closer to my Dad. I formed a real friendship with him this year. Its a beautiful thing to watch this father/daughter dynamic unfold and its so very precious and special to me. I didnt always feel that deep connection when I was younger but I do now and I am beyond thankful and it truly brings great joy to my heart. I learned there are a lot, I mean A LOT of stinky people that ride the NYC subway system and they all love to sit next to me. The sun, trees, mountains, water and fresh air are all that I need to feed my soul. Concrete buildings and city life are amazing and fun and were perfect in my 20s, but Im ready for wide open spaces and some hikes through the mountains. With that said, Ive decided to move back to California, but this time, with John in tow! :) Ive allowed myself to slow down. The first part of this year was all about living quietly and under the radar. Ive always been so in your face to life and I stepped back a bit. I took a job in the Human Resources dept of a non-profit and barely spoke. I kept my head in my desk and just got what needed to be done, done. So much so, that I also started helping in payroll and both depts offered me a position. I didnt take either, as I knew it was just a layover until I figured out what to do next. The beautiful thing about that time period was, I didnt pressure myself at all about anything. One of the true times I was just BEing and BEing okay with exactly what I was doing. No other agenda. No nagging voice saying you have to do this or achieve this. I was just living simply. And I just waited. Then the call came. Then it was time to pick up the camera and begin again. Ive been playing Candy Crush for a year and its taught me that I dont ever give up on anything, even when maybe I should, and that constant work gets you constant progress. Slow or fast, youre still moving ahead. I still believe in LIFE. I still believe that every moment, the tough ones and the overwhelmingly beautiful ones are just as important and just as big of a blessing as the other one. Ive been taught again that expectations are just ways of being let down. Allow the truth of the moment in. When you expect certain things to happen, you are limiting the unlimited possibilities of that moment and that person. God and the Universe see a lot more than we can and we never know what is in store for us. You can desire all you want and even go after that something, but you also have to know that handing over the outcome and trusting in it, is the very strongest an best thing you can do. Then you invite all possibilities and the beauty of life lies within those possibilities. Ive learned that I need to start paying more attention to my teeth. I learned that high visibility or low visibility in the public eye really doesnt matter. Its how Im spending those moments that count. I need creativity and however that shapes itself, in whatever visibility, is more than okay. I dont need recognition of my Being-ness from others because Ive recognized my own worth and value in my very own quiet moments. I learned I can survive on very little sleep due in part to my new baby. My fur baby, Hershey, that is. I have a very high work ethic. Having left the restaurant industry this past year (after 20 years), I tried many new things this year and Im just as much an overachiever in filing and data entry as I was having to be a top notch corporate server. I dont like doing anything half ass. With that said, last month, after one year of quitting waiting tables, I am now a partner in a startup company and begin working full time on it January 1st. Holy crap! Im a business owner!! I love Fall clothes. Scarves, hats, boots, and cute jackets. I loved getting dressed here in NYC. I also feel much more attractive here than I do back in LA, but that has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with the standard of beauty in each city. Im a schlump in Hollywood and a star here. But dont underestimate me, I will be a star there this time around. Im bringing the twinkle with me. One of most amazing thing Im looking forward to about working from home (besides many), is the fact that I dont have to worry about my hair anymore. If I choose to wear a wig, I dont have to wear the same one forever, because Im worried about if change it, there will have to be a whole explanation about it. I can rock nothing from home or red one day and blonde the next. I learned that people yell a lot here. About nothing and about everything. Especially in the mornings on the subway. Thats always a joyous way to start your day. My own opinion of myself is ENOUGH. I can barely stay out past 10pm. I dont know what has happened to this former party girl, but it seems the party has been crashed by my 40 year old Grandma self. Speaking of 40, holy crap I turned 40 this year!! Love always wins. Self love will get you through everything. So will faith. Serve yourself an extra heap of each every morning before you start your day. I love cold, brisk mornings. I always feel so alive when I step outside. I love greeting the start of a new day. I love saying hi to the trees, the sky, the birds, and God. I just love mornings. I also realize right this very moment that I sound like Snow White wIth the birds and squirrels and all other life sitting at her feet and on her shoulders singing. Lol Ive learned that my true mission and purpose here on this planet and in this lifetime is rebuilding and reaffirming peoples spirits. That my greatest passion and I do it through my other greatest passion: entertainment. :) 2014 has just affirmed my strength, my faith, my lessons learned, and my deep desire to see and experience the world and life. Watch out, 2015 - Im showing up for you in every city on the planet!
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 17:28:26 +0000
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