My beautiful wife just forwarded me a email from 2012 as I opened it I began to cry, I am such a fool sometimes because I never allow myself time to read messages like this, I store them under the title Love and light in my emails till one day when I decide to end this work and then take in what spirit has asked of me. Today I just want you to feel these words as I have just felt. If I have never not replied to your letters then please forgive me but know this, one day I will have the time to truly bask in your healing words when I will need them the most....so my beautiful friends here is one beautiful lady who wrote to me with all her heart. I hope you can feel and understand the power of our divine moment, it comes to all of us.. THE CHILD WITHIN/THE HAND OF A HEALER (by !!) I sat there, wallowing in my sorrow. Watching the child within walk away from me. “I won’t remain here with you’ she said to me sternly, ‘not here, in this place of darkness and lost dreams’. ‘I hardly even recognise you’ she continued, a bit more softly, ‘the woman who carried those dreams for so long. Who believed in them, who cherished them.’ I could see her eyes watering and I could hardly breathe from the pain it caused me. ‘Why did you stop believing?’ she quivered, ‘why did you stop listening to me?’. I felt too weak to argue back. She was right of course, the child within always is. When I did have the courage and strength to follow the same path with her somehow life felt lighter, more correct – even when things weren’t always going ‘my way’. She continued walking away further into the distance, with every step my pain growing more intense, my breath becoming more shallow. I felt more lost than I could ever remember, more broken and more alone. As her figure grew smaller and smaller in the distance, my future flashed before me – a purgatory of heartache, depression and defeat. My body was shaking uncontrollably – a few more moments and she would be gone, my child within, my beautiful child within. Was I really going to let this happen? Just then a sound escaped my lips…at first it was no more than a whisper but the whisper grew stronger and suddenly it became the loudest roar. Overcome, I crumbled into my pain and everything was dark and still. Into the stillness I heard myself whisper, ‘Please, don’t leave me. I don’t want to give up on our dreams. I just don’t know what to do’. In that moment, the slightest breeze moved across my cheek. I raised my head and I could see her – the tiniest silhouette in the distance but she was there, returning! I sat there trembling in my relief. I could not move and watched her walking slowly back toward me, a look of complete and utter love spread across her face. “Why have you returned?’ I asked nervously. “I am not returning, for I never left’ she said decidedly, ‘as I walked into the darkness, I was drawn towards the tiniest slice of light. Through this light came the hand of a healer. He took my hand in his and guided me. As we walked together, I began to understand all that I needed to know.’ She looked deep into my eyes and continued, ‘I felt your pain and through your pain, I felt your loss. Through your loss, I felt your love. Through your love, I felt your hope. You are here for me, as I am here for you. You must never stop believing. You must never stop listening to the sound of your own voice. You must never give up. No matter how hard it is at times, remember I will always be here. When you need courage, look to me. When you need love, look to me. When you need a friend, I am here.’ Now her face was glowing and a beautiful light surrounded us. Peace washed over me in that moment of clarity and something beautiful happened – I smiled. It is a moment that will stay with me forever. As I opened my eyes, I can still recall the beautiful scent that filled the room around me. I could have thought it was all a dream but for the tears that had soaked my face and the immense peace I was now feeling. ‘Are you okay?’, he asked, his kind, gentle eyes smiling at me. ‘Yes, yes I am’, I replied in utter amazement, ‘all that pain, it’s gone’. And it was, the pain that had imprisoned me during the prior ten months had completely disappeared. I had so many questions and yet I didn’t want an explanation; rather, I didn’t need any explanation. I just knew I had experienced something that was pure and divine. As we hugged and said our goodbyes, I tried desperately to find the right words to express the enormous gratitude I was feeling. ‘Thank you for showing me the way’ was all I could manage in that moment, knowing how blessed I was to feel the loving power as I held, once again, the hand of this humble and devout Healer. I could hear those words whisper again in my ear, ‘I am here for you’ and as I left his Healing Studio that day, I knew I would be fine. Mark - the above story is now and forever shall be...dedicated to You! Much love for showing me the way...never forget who you are and what you mean to the world. xxx
Posted on: Thu, 24 Jul 2014 20:49:46 +0000