My rambling note to a sweet friend who last week, very unexpectedly and tragically, lost his beloved, who was just 29, on the last day of their honeymoon: Wow. BInah. What an impact shes had… what an extraordinary woman, an extraordinary life… Dear, sweet man that you are, Elijah… I grieve with you. I really have been speechless, feeling at a loss for what to say or how to respond to your sudden loss. Then it came to me, Id been meaning to share this song with you Give Me Grace in relation to our discussions and exploration of the Gene Keys, as my attractor field is the 22nd Gene Key… whos highest expression is Grace. Weve all known loss, in one way or another. The loss of a relationship, of a dream, of a lover, a partner… This song is about that, and this video was dedicated to my friend, and co-writer of this song, who had lost her mother a year and a half ago. It saddens me that Im only now sharing this song with you, and that its words speaks so directly to the loss of your dear beloved Binah Zing , but it does speak to that, and Binah which surely have delighted in hearing it, and musing on its expression of the 22nd Gene Key, and how it was actually written several year before Id even heard of the Gene Keys, let alone known that the divine attribute of Grace is apart of my DNA. But of course, thats exactly why it would come out in the way it did. Life does tenderize and shape us in ways that can seem cruel at the time when unexpected, and unwanted charge is upon us, but it shapes us lovingly regardless of how it fits with our imagined course of action, circumstances, and personal desires. Ive been blown away by your gracious openness… your courageous willingness to open your heart to your community, inviting a shared experiences of grief, AND of celebration of your most dear and beloved one. Your selflessness and grace under pressure is extraordinary to behold. You, and Binah were such beacons as people, as teachers, as shining examples of enlighten, sacred union. Such an inspiration. Im a huge fan of love… of partnership, and my heart always DELIGHTS when I see a couple that exudes the depth, the love, commitment, the vision, and sweet playfulness of what a sacred union can really be. I delight in it, and smile in knowing that what I see and appreciate brings it ever closer to my own experience. The sweet innocence in me say… YES… I want something like that! In the meantime, I LOVE celebrating the success and joys of a relationship such as you two had… had… thats such a sad word to say at this time… of course, you HAVE her in your heart, you have all the sweet, love and joy there. But I feel the ache… the sickening ache of that very truly human experience of loss. The breaking apart of the beautiful dream of a life time together. I cry tears with you, feel my heart break with you, feel the raw vulnerable ache of being so exposed to LIFE, lifes dream for one and all. THIS has happened. How could this happen? Sigh. I ramble on, just saying what tumbles out of my heart, onto the page, just words to let you know that I love you, and loved Binah, even though, like so many, we had only crossed path a bit here and there, but like so many, it doesnt take much to feel drawn in, and included into the magic that is OneDoorLand, the magic of Binahs HUGE heart, and extraordinary vision, and the beautiful magic of such a sweet man as you Elijah Parker. I am deeply grateful to you both, for who you are, and everything you offer, everything you do… the way you show up and inspire people endless, with you creativity, your ideas, your community space. I owe it to you both in bring me into the fold of the Gene Keys and lighting up a whole part of my personal journey and growth. Thank you. And all of a sudden the urgency of service, of showing up and shining my own light just intensifies. The light doesnt go out when someone passes… it is passed on it would seem, BInahs light is just FIRING UP the hearts of so many, quickening the impulse to connect and share… what a beautiful magic trick to be gone but here even MORE, her every whisper louder than before. What a trickster. What a soul. What a woman. WOW. My heart and love goes out to all those closest to Binah, family and friends alike. Blessings to you all. May Grace be with you. BIg HUGS Elijah Parker, Theo Brama, Amma Lightweaver… GIVE ME GRACE (c.r. wood/r. nugent 2011) With a rush of cold wind - I feel our house fall on in blowing all around me - all comes crashing down, as my love... took it all away - and Im sitting here I dont what to say - or what I hear I cant let you go - so I bow my head and prostrate myself before you - my my Love Martin spoke to Job of the ashes, of the clay you cant understand - or earn your way in the ashes, in the clay I never thought I could let it go This feeling of never being whole but somehow we finally made it so what happened? what happened? to our never ending glow? - my my Love I learnt to pray when... - I learnt to kneel when my life... took me for a ride then - tried to take me down then my life knocked me to my knees - and forced me down tried to say oh, please - just let me go wouldnt let me go - so I bowed my head and prostrate myself before you - my my Life Show me Mercy - Give me Grace Show me Mercy - Give me Grace Let it go and let it be - Show me Mercy Erase my guilt, without a trace - Give me Grace I never thought I could let it go This feeling of never being whole but somehow it finally became so it happened... it happened... ...I let it go Thank you Mercy - Thank you Grace
Posted on: Mon, 06 Oct 2014 20:49:11 +0000