My whole life ive suffered with depression,anxiety and panic attacks not being able to control it or speak about it as I was too ashamed to reach out as I let pride get the better of me. I always wanted to seek help but my conscience always told me otherwise. Thirty three years later im not that same person who hid behind a mask,drink or line.But im a person of God who speaks up in front of people about my experiences. Speaking up is so much more spiritual then not speaking at all. As this silent killer almost took my life. Depression is not like wetting your bed, where you could change your sheets and clothes and be done with it. Depression stains your life. Its a silent killer that leads to many addictions including isolation and in some cases suicide. Suicide is a permeant solution to a temporary problem. When I was in my 20s my best friend committed suicide as he couldnt deal with the struggles in life. I have just realised that I was going down the same path, but at a much slower rate. I cant express this enough but the devil is a liar. Depression is from satan. Its that feeling of not wanting to get out of bed. That feeling of waking up wishing you didnt. That feeling of always being a failure. What ever I know that feeling. But no more I dont want to live in a hole anymore. I dont deserve to be put down, but to be picked up. I deserve to be spoken too,instead of down too. Wanted instead of unwanted. And most important feeling loved instead of feeling unloved. Please guys I might not have the answer to your suffering or pain but I have the answer to mine and that answer is God. Depression is an absence of God. No doctor could explain what happened to me. I dont need a scientific answer as I have God. The glory of God is a human being fully alive.
Posted on: Sun, 19 Oct 2014 05:18:46 +0000
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