Ok here we go........so I have decided to share with you all what has been going on with me.... I was going to wait until Tuesday, but like my mom said, maybe I should share so people will know what to pray for because it helps..... I know everything there is to know about this yet I go for my testing on Tuesday to see if it applies to me..... I have helped a few people get through this myself and I am very familiar with the stress, anxiety, the fear, the concern, everything that comes with it........ normally its nothing, and there are so many things that can cause it, Im fully educated on this, but I never experienced this first hand..... so now I have to go get a mammogram and ultrasound Tuesday due to a lump that they found in my breast ........ like I said Im fully educated on this I know that most of the time its nothing, I know majority of the time it could be benign, and I know how this works but now Im experiencing it first hand for myself and not through someone else, you have to be in the situation to understand the fear that someone can have, there is a small chance that you are walking around with breast cancer and you dont know but theres also a huge chance that its nothing but its still not going to stop the worry, its a natural way of thinking when youre faced with something when you really dont know the answer yet.......SO......I will keep everyone updated as I am updated and all I ask for is a small prayer while I go through this journey...... I was going to keep it a secret and thats only because I didnt want to worry anyone else when it could be nothing and whats the point of worrying somebody when theres nothing to worry about...... its kind of scary because Ive been reading so many stats about cancer lately from so many ppl right around the time that all of this was discovered, so it doesnt help my worry but I AM PRAYING, I am doing everything Im supposed to and can, no need for advice Im aware of how this works and what to do a little too well..... it can be stressful when ppl say oh dont worry its nothing, or you too young for it, thing or same thing happened to so and so and it was nothing, etc, esp from ppl that never even been through it, even for the ppl that have.... before you get tested the last thing you want to hear are things like that cuz without testing, NO ONE KNOWS BUT GOD, then he tells the docs LOL and yes you are supposed to stay positive which I am but I dont want to be so positive where I dont also think of the reality that it is true and then if it is gat will hurt, I have to be realistic yet hopeful and give the devil NO POWER.... yes I am staying positive, prayed up, I know the statistics, probabilities and all the options that it could be other than cancer, I know so many ppl that have been through this, I have helped a few ppl get through this and ran into some that turned out to be breast cancer RIP tania.... but its not a death sentence all the time, there are so many options to beat it but the reality in it all is there are no answers right now, everyone situation is not the same, so I cant even guess anything.... I cant sit back and act like Im not a wreck right now but all of this is up to God and the plan he has for me and Im literally taking it one step at a time..... so step 1 is complete, I went to doc and got exam, he located lumps and due to location, age, and just to make sure its nothing, he ordered the mammogram and ultrasound for me....... I know you all know why I am beyond stressed because I already deal with a disease thats not too fun (Multiple Sclerosis) and my life has been really rough since July last year, losing everything.... so Im riding with God now..... he is the only one that can get me through this...... I pray its nothing but I will update you as I go.... Thanks for taking the time out to read .... God bless, love yall, each and every one of you!!!
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 21:41:07 +0000
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