Ok minions.....this is usually where I decide to creatively spin things into some picture for everyone to see....today is a little different. I do want to paint a picture for you, but this is going to be a little different. Today we are going to muse over the idea of change..... Change....change is hard for any of us....in the house of flies....the channel, who youre with....what youre doing....shit....how youre living. All of it....none of its easy, and thats exactly why it doesnt happen as much as people think it does....but it probably should. One of the things Ive found in life is that change doesnt actually happen until it is inevitable. Your life...the things you do...the people that enter and exit...the mistakes you make...they are all constant right up until the breaking point. You will continue to do exactly “what you do” until something comes along to forces you to “do” otherwise. Until then...you will make the same mistakes that you have always made....because change is that hard. Change is hard sometimes because people become addicted. Drawn to the flare...feeding off some form of adrenaline fueled drama. Or....maybe because somewhere they think they can change what really cant be changed in the first place. Everybody wants to be the one....the one to buck the odds so to say....the one that defies logic and does what people said they cant. But in reality.....they arent. Theres nothing wrong with that....they just arent, or least what they want to change isnt truly their fight to turn the tide on. The tide of battle favors those who can swim....most people have a hard enough time treading water....but thats another musing for another time I guess. Even though mistakes hurt and cause pain, at least the its the same paint, right? Better to have a pain that you know than change and find a new way to bleed...right? Wrong. Change hurts most of the time. It only hurts because somewhere inside you have to admit that what you previously did was wrong....and who wants to be wrong? Ill be the first to admit....to all of you, that change for me is hard. Its almost impossible. Id burn a thousand times before I admit Im wrong....but all that pride never stopped my tears from falling. That pride never brought anyone back....and it never made anyone care about me any more...So we change. We change direction, we change lifestyles, we change something...anything. But then, we find out that change isnt exactly what we had planned....because its hard....it breeds memories and tears...it spawns this uncomfortable feeling of newness and unaware direction....so we revert back. Back to the same pain. Back to the same mistakes. Its like going home....in a dysfunctional, negative, backwards way. It takes true will and resolve to actually change....but it can happen. Ive seen it. Ive lived it. Some of it by choice....some not. But Ive also seen the revert...Ive lived that too. Thats why I cant blame anyone for the choices they make....its not my place. People will do what they do....until such a time where they cant.....for one reason or another because that is the hallmark of being human. Routine, expectation, what you know as opposed to what you dont. These are what people look for in life....unfortunately, its also what harbors no change.....even when people need it the most. ..... Thanks to my nephew Matthew Wigen
Posted on: Sun, 09 Mar 2014 15:40:33 +0000
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