Okay, so today 9-3-94 is my 20 year wedding anniversary. I refuse to let today be a sad day for me. I will not cry or dwell on the negative. I will not worry about what could have been. Yes, I still hurt, but I know that I did all I could in my marriage and I went above and beyond trying to save it. I was blessed with three beautiful children from that union, so for that reason alone, I can not call my marriage a failure. I supported my husband through some very dark times in his life. I took my marriage vows seriously and I stood by him for better or worse. I was always faithful. David did not keep those vows. He strayed from our marriage and that is a decision he will have to live with the rest of his life. He has chosen a different path and by him doing so, he has altered the lives of myself and our children. I believe that everyone makes mistakes, but it is how they handle those mistakes afterward that define their true character. I had hoped that David would redeem himself and work for my forgiveness. Instead of responding to me with compassion and love, he has drifted further away and has ignored me. I have watched the man that I love, whom I shared intimate and sacred moments with, begin to treat me like I was nothing. This last year has been a roller coaster of emotions for me. Hurt, betrayal, denial and anger. I felt completely broken and I thought I needed to fix me. Now I realize that I was only bruised, and in time those bruises will heal. I do believe that everything happens for a reason. When bad things happen, they may seem horrible and unfair at first. But in reflection, by overcoming these obstacles you realize your true potential and strength. My marriage was not part of God’s plan and He knows exactly where I should be. I might not know where that is quite yet, but I trust Him. I will go on. I will succeed and I will shine once again. Quite possibly even brighter than before. So today 9-3-14 is now a new anniversary for me! Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I am turning the page and starting a new chapter in my life. It has yet to be written and that is of course up to me and the choices I make. I will make mistakes, but I will learn and grow from them. Failure is not the falling down, but the staying down and I am getting up. The decisions I make today can propel me to the life that I want and towards the healing that I need. I have my wonderful family and amazing friends to lean on when I need to. But as the days get easier, I will need to lean a little bit less. I have to say I am excited to see what my future has in store for me. I will work hard and enjoy the life that I have. I still have so much to be thankful for! Now, here is where it gets FUN!! I would like for everyone to celebrate with me!! Come on now! Grab a drink (if you’re not a drinker, juice will do ) Raise it up….Higher…. and TOAST with me! Today is a happy day full of many reasons to smile! Today is a fresh start to a new life, full of possibilities and promise! Happiness is not about having all that you want. It is about appreciating what you have. And I my wonderful friends have a lot! So thank you! I love you all! CHEERS!
Posted on: Wed, 03 Sep 2014 17:18:00 +0000
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