One year ago today we said our final goodbyes to our son Richard Emerson House II, this has been the hardest year of our lives. Richard I have to say that last July 30th was the hardest day of our life. To say goodbye to you and watching and hearing you take your last breath of air was the most painful thing that we that were in that room with you will ever have to go through. The day that I gave birth to you, your father and I were two of the happiest people on this earth…your father still swears that you said “I want my momma” as they were carrying you to the nursery. I can remember the first time that Joelle laid eyes on you she was such a proud big sister…you were her new baby brother. I had to watch her constantly because she was always trying to pick you up. This past year has been a living hell for your father, Joelle and me…and most of all Audrina and Arabella. I am not saying that other people didn’t feel the loss of you or the heart break, what I am saying that you were their father, Joelle’s brother and our son…a parent should never have to go through such a loss and if those of you who are reading this could just look at your child and imagine what we the people that were the closest to Richard felt and are still feeling today. We did everything that we could do for you Richard your entire life…and you know that I mean everything. In life you made sure that you had all your ducks in a row in case anything were to ever happen to you …except you forgot one person Arabella, Your father and I knew that you would want the girls to share what you left behind for them and we fought for that to happen. At no time was the battle for your father and I to take what you wanted in trust for the girls…it was to make sure that your wishes were followed through with. We did that with some exceptions …which I am sure that you would be ok with because it will still be for the girls. Your family, your father, sister, myself and Chip have held strong through all the negative talk about us…all the lies …all the twisted ways that we were and still are being looked at, how family can be so cruel as to say that our pain is an attention getter and we want people to feel sorry for us…but it’s all ok because we as always, stand strong together. There will always be people in this world that will twist things to suit themselves…people that never once could go to the extent of just asking us what our or your intentions were…but so eager to believe the worst, to make excuses for their actions by saying very mean and nasty things about other people so that people can’t see their true colors….and then there are the people that have never thought, with one shred of doubt your father and my sincerity and our honesty, you would be so proud of the people that have held us and comforted us and stood behind us through this year of hell Richard. The people that have turned this into such a family battle…the people that were never there for you in life, now all of a sudden in death knew who you were as a person and what you would have wanted for the girls….it’s all very sad and shameful. I love you my son, just as much today as I did the moment that I knew I was carrying you, our hearts once beat together and they still beat together and always will…..miss you always, your mom
Posted on: Tue, 30 Jul 2013 13:43:25 +0000
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