Please, all the people whove ever felt this way, tell me you understand and that it will end. My memory is so short, I cant remember how Ive managed times like these. Ive laid staring at the wall all day. A lot of me is numb, some depressed, and a desperate but somewhat distant voice is screaming at me to do something. I cant force myself to read, watch, or play. Even talking to JR has been difficult. The only reason Im able to post now is because I managed to have a shower. I think it started after Christmas but got worse New Years Eve. I was playing a game but got frustrated and will have to start over. It was the only activity I was managing. Every day feels exactly the same, I cant pull myself out of bed much, all I want to do is sleep but the oversleeping is giving me killer headaches. I dont know if this is post period, SAD, or just a deep depressive period. Also worried about whether my meds could be zombie-ing me, but that would have started early on in the treatment, surely? This New Years has been horrible. I should have spent it with friends but I couldnt face parties. I dont want to be like this all my life, falling into darkness and not entirely knowing what combination of shit has caused it. So yet another cry for help from me. I know it must get tiring but you can unfollow me without me knowing.
Posted on: Fri, 02 Jan 2015 16:34:54 +0000