Reflection: I took time out for me today. I listened to one of my audible books: Living Beyond Your Feelings by Joyce Meyer and thank the Lord I got an attitude adjustment! God is for me, so who can be against me! He created me and loves me just the way I am, so instead of walking around acting like I truly feel all the time-I choose to let God have complete control of my personality! I am not and have never been an outgoing person; I have always been shy and backward with incredible low self-esteem and never felt like I fit in or belonged anywhere I was, but over the past several months I began to pray about that and began to like myself. My Conclusion: Not everyone is going to get my unique sense of humor; Not everyone is going to understand me at all, why I joke, pick, etc., what the Lord has brought me through during my lifetime and all that is the reason why I choose to try to stay upbeat and stay happy all the time (whether I feel it on the inside or not) in order to hold onto my sanity-lets face it 99% of people are so focused on themselves or bombarded by other people, old friends,etc that they rarely take the time to truly get to know another person; Not everyone is going to like me; Not everyone is going to treat me the way I would like to be treated or the way they treat others; Not everyone is going to live up to my expectations; Not everyone is going to be there for me (even the people you expect to/ think should be or thought always would be) so do I allow that to let me sink into a pit of depression? Do I allow people, their attitude or their behavior toward me to steal my joy? I say NO-ABSOLUTELY NOT! I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder when I was only 19 years old, but I refuse to allow a depressive spirit to attach itself to me and take a hold of me like it has tried to since yesterday/last night! The joy of the Lord is my strength therefore I make a conscious decision to put my smile back on my face, act my silly self, and laugh at my own self and if other people dont get me, thats ok because they have not been on my journey with me, so they can not possibly understand! Every person has to walk their own road-some good, some bad. Everyone has been through something painful that has changed them. Some allow it to make them bitter or angry (that was me for years). Some turn it over to God and realize Yes, bad things do happen to good people, but God is still a Loving God! Some try to use their painful experiences to try to help others who are going through the same or similar situations-to help them realize Hey, heres someone who has been there and who has survived! If you do not understand a persons pain, you cant possibly understand their Praise! I am truly thankful for those who understand me and even those who dont understand, but who continue to be there for me! Be Blessed Fb friends and family!
Posted on: Fri, 07 Mar 2014 01:37:25 +0000
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