So I did a thing. Offically coming out to my dad has been very odd for me. Like I felt like I shouldnt have to have that awkward hey dad im gay talk. It has also been very scarry. In my earlier years I was threatened by loosing my two young siblings if I was gay, which really hurt me emotionally and helped destroy a relationship. Eventually he caught on to the lies after parental snooping through my fb. At the time he just brushed it off as a phase and eventually i began hiding myself again. Well tonight, I came clean. I uncovered who I am, who I have become, in front of a man, so Holy, so faithful. I was sure I was loosing him as soon as the phrase you arent gonna like this but I have a gf came spilling from my lips, his eyes drooped, mirroring that familiar look I get when I stare in the mirror, eyes full of tears. But this time I didnt back down, no I stood up for myself, and it was in that moment I have NEVER been so proud of myself. I let him know how I felt, that who I loved wasnt the only thing that defined me. Much to my suprise, my father, looked me in the eye and said I will love you forever, you are my child, my love is not just unconditional it is everlasting, thank you for not lying. He then went on to explain that even though he doesnt agree, he sees how confident I am which makes him feel actually, PROUD that i am NOT CHOOSING something for attention or out of revenge of having douchebag boyfriends and giving up on all men. PROUD because i am letting my heart choose. For so long I have creeped around. I have felt paranoid that at any moment I would be caught. But instead of being the incarcerated, I freed myself. I took a huge weight off my shoulders and no longer have to avoid the questions or those eyes and gestures that identically match my own with fabricated lies and imaginary friends. I will not have to worry about loosing those 2 cute lil faces because I had the balls to challenge my father if loving a woman is one of the only bad influences I have over your children, why would you ever rip their big sister out of their lives. Dad looked puzzled and then responded I am proud to have such an amazing and strong minded individual as my daughter, why the HELL would I do that. I have always had my best friend, other than mommy, but now I feel we have brought that friendship closer than its ever been. God Tabria, this changing for the better thing is pretty legit ;)
Posted on: Thu, 22 Jan 2015 04:54:52 +0000
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