So Sylvia was in my dream last night and she told me not to give up and to keep fighting. But I told Sylvia that its to hard you cant just tell me too keep fighting and I will I told her that its hard how my best friend Elly lives so far and its hard that you are not in my life anymore and Sylvia got mad because I said she wasnt in my life anymore she told me that she will always be in my life. For a couple of days now Ive been in a sad depression and I have been hiding it inside and Sylvia knew I was she told me to stop being depressed all the time she told me to start liking school but I told her that I dont want to go to school. At school I always have a smile on my face but its not real my smile that you see is not real because Im never happy Im trying to fix that but its going to take a long time I told Sylvia all of this and do you know what she said? She said that she understands she told me that I need to start listening and be more strong I told her I cant I told her that I just want to run away from life that Im done with everything she started to cry and I did to she kissed me on the cheek and said dont ever give up. That dream told me that Sylvia was still with me but i still dont understand why I feel like I have nothing left in my life to be happy after that dream I had I know Sylvia is with me but it doesnt make me happy it makes me mad cause Im never ever going to see her and thats why I hate life so much I always have every since she had passed I dont want to get up for school I dont want to go to school I dont want to put a fake smile on my face I just want to hide from life for a little while but I cant and thats what hurts the most. I know its been a year since she had passed but you dont understand how painful this is for me I loved her more then anyone else shes my everything and I just want her back I love her.
Posted on: Fri, 28 Nov 2014 07:09:05 +0000
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