So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest I dont have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way He loves us, ....the way he loves me...ME. Constantly having my back. The more I go down this road stuff I thought was a big deal that was weighing me down doesnt matter anymore. People who turn away or whatever reason. None of that matters. I could have died when my dad was going 90 down the valley an I was smothering. Heck I could have went in my sleep the night before. Not one day on this earth is promised. Not one single minute, hour, tmrw, next week etc. I used to think Im not worthy enough I party, I drank two weeks ago, or I cursed at work today. Nope. Why should I ask for forgiveness when Ill probably do it again next week. My mentality started to turn so negative towards Christ. Why?! He has done nothing but watch over me. But the enemy constantly tries to shield your eyes. I was blind to his acts. When I was in the hospital on five liters of oxygen, in an out of consciousness, the Drs said I wanted to give up. I bairly knew I was there defiantly didnt have any strength to fight but the Lord pulled me through a chest biopsy, bone marrow biopsy, etc. Etc. why am I still here?? At this point I broke an prayed up to my heavenly father for forgiveness an guidance. I didnt break because I was sick I broke because after all this your still keeping me here. It was well over due praise. I am worthy of his love. I AM WORTHY. You are worthy of his love. YOU ARE WORTHY. He is worthy of his love. She is worthy of his love. An let me tell you the more I seek of him, his loves becomes something unexplainable. Because its unconditional. You cant measure that. No matter what happens at the end of the day this is his plan. Just let him take lead.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 02:39:32 +0000