So if anyone is wondering what is up with my Relationship with Isaiah, I Regrettably have to inform you that it is over. Not entirely by choice but sheer ambiguity. When we started dating a year ago it was the most magical time of my life, I was Open, Free Loving and ready to accept someone else into my life. Hands Open. Instead what happened is merely a tragedy in the midst of so much despair, out comes a Butterfly, Me. I cannot hide this pain inside me any longer. The mistakes Ive made over the past year can no longer haunt me with their omission. I have to accept what I have done and take it as a learning. When I first met this boy, I knew upon instance he was my twin flame. I felt it in the very depths of my being. Poetry exploded inside of me. A sensation in my abdomen like none other than before, it shaped me. It stuck me in a chrysalis and told me to behave and instead of heeding all my inner voices, I began to self-doubt. I began to question what was right for me because suddenly permission had to come from another person instead of within. This was not my fault rather but merely the dynamics of our relationship. I began to fall, quite madly for someone I knew absolutely nothing about merely because of a glitter I had seen in his eyes. Many months later we would walk in shame upon losing that glitter only to realize that love was merely my reflection seeking out wards. I stand or walk rather before you today with 11 months of wisdom and respect for what I gained and lost in this experience. I lost many friends and collegues and potential adventures because I chose to seek guidance from someone above me instead of consulting my own Angels. Of whom I trust with great integrity. Our relationship was founded on the dynamics of love and friendship and was torn apart because of our own humility. Specific details of what has happened are quite outrageous and highly unexpected. However learning what I have I can only hope to improve my future in ways it has never been before and take the next few weeks to marinate in my weaknesses until they become strengths once more. I would like to proclaim my outstanding love for this person with every fractal of my being but there is no way to ensure that by doing so I reap any rewards. In fact upon falling in love it was never my intention to reap anything, only to give with all my being what I had to offer. I look around and live in a beautiful city surrounded by a very social atmosphere. I am not afraid to be alone nor had I ever been. Today I would like to proclaim my new name. Born out of this experience, Hope AlexandraRainbow Felicity Heart Starchild, from the seventh generation of Stoney witches. In my heart I am but a butterfly seeking to light upon the world a great fire. In the stillness of my love affair I ask that all of my posts be taken with great care as they come but from the highest speck of my calling. To you my dear friends, I impart upon you the magic I have experienced and the hope I have inherited. God bless Ye Grandest Respects, Hope Starchild
Posted on: Tue, 09 Sep 2014 22:03:55 +0000
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