So, right now it is 0140 in the morning. Soon the clocks jump forward and spring is just around the corner. Today I had to run into Atlanta with the windows down, and the roof open. Yes, it was nice to be able to do it. Its days like this that provide an appreciation for what is really important in life. Days when I can just be in my studio, jump in the car, and head into the city for some reason or other. About 10 years ago I had my first Afib attack. I woke up in the middle of the night, told Deborah I was feeling kind of dizzy, and then it passed. I got up and headed out in the morning. I was on my way into the office for the company I worked for at the time, but first I had to stop and get my tires rotated. I called Deborah and told her maybe I better stop by the Doctors office. I walked in and they put me right at the front of the line. They ask me; Did you run up here from the parking lot? I said No. Then they told me my resting heart beat was up to 195 beats a minute. The strange thing is that there wasnt any panic. No thinking about death. No life passing before me and all that BS. There was this calm. The nurses and Doctors couldnt believe my demeanor or the way I was handling it. Maybe it is just how your mind works. I have no idea. But I do know that day changed my life, and the days of taking things for granted were over. It was also the day I said NO MORE BULLSHIT. It changes how you view your life. How you put so much emphasis on not worrying about what other people think about you anymore. Or, taking people who care about you for granted. You end up having a short fuse for idiots, and people who want to waste your time. The prime motivator in my life has always been the terrible fear of failing. I had this thing about people liking me all the time, and being accepted. I was bitter about how my father and mother were treated by the companies they worked for, and some of the people they worked with. My father being joked about because of his Italian heritage by his co-workers. It motivated the hell out of me not to take anyones _ _ _ _ ever in my life. Maybe that is what made me a 4.0 sailor in the Navy, and caused me to have the passion that I have about everything I do. I had this anger that if you use it correctly it can channel your energies into doing some marvelous things. I have also come to the conclusion that the fewer people you allow into your life, the fewer problems you are going to have. Anyway, just sitting here tripping the light fantastic and pondering lifes challenges and opportunities. Its amazing what you can accomplish as a night person. I guess its too early to open the roof, put down the windows, and drive into Atlanta. But, at least there wouldnt be any traffic jams. I wish all of you nothing but the best in your lives.
Posted on: Sun, 09 Mar 2014 07:27:12 +0000
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