Sorry I havent posted in a while ... I let myself get in a funk ... Just trying to figure out what were going to do ... Today we had another drs appt sams dr said hell write a letter to disability to help us make our case so thats a huge blessing and now he also has arthritis in his spine ... At times I feel so helpless to him and it breaks my heart ... And all the while trying to figure out how to get through each month is just killing me along with christmas coming and bills keep coming in but nothing going out I thank god so much for Toys for Tots weve always been able to give and now for a second time the kids will recieve... Im on a wiating list for heap but wont have an appt until Jan. 21st I thank God everyday for giving us strength to carry on and that over the yesrs weve realized that fighting over the lack of money doesnt bring more money but only strife in our marriage so we just keep faith hold on tight and dont fight with eachother but fight together to figure it out ... We are booking up nicly at work for next year starting in april so that is a huge plus so for now its just getting through praying for sams disability and that we can just hang on ... Its humbling to always be at the bottom and some day when we are stable I cant wait to help others in need to be there in every way possible... All I can say is never loose faith because God never breaks his promises though my fleshly human self wants to break and more times than not comes very close that is when I hit my knees and pray and remember every single blessing I have at that moment and as long as Ive got God ... My love sam... And my babies Im gonna be alright ... My kids sat us down to have a talk and they tell us ... Dad mom ... Sister and I know you dont have money to buy us new toys or shoes or anything but were ok as long as were together on christmas and as long as we celebrate jesus birthday ... I know Im far from perfect and I know Ive gotten a lot of things wrong but hearing my children be so humble and thankful for what they have and knowing Jesus is first lets me know that Sam and I are surely doing something right ....
Posted on: Thu, 21 Nov 2013 02:56:37 +0000
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