There was once a time when I was young 13 I began be very hateful and resentful and angry spiteful even for whatever reasons maybe not to be discussed because that is not the point ...with that came a hatred for being , and in God which soon made me come to realizations in myself feeling nothing that I believed in nothing because of the lies taught within religion and false delusions of demoralizing strategizing limiting since if oneself I began to believe is in whole in injust illusion and lies for people and thus with the hatred for being I decided I was atheist I decided that there was no god but there was no reason for being and there was no reason or no rhymes to anything possibly karma... and I felt maybe I was suffering for that because of God if there was such a thing but thats the thing in my heart I always knew that there was something no matter how much I didnt want to believe no matter how much I wanted to ignore or not notice in my heart I had a hate for God one day I got very angry and I said that to myself almost as to say it to him as though it was something separate for myself talk by said delusionary system - religions that I searched too many starting with the ones closest to home being Catholic and all the Christian ones horrible mistake being that Western society is famous for its slavery and basically manipulation of its people in order to get selfish greedy gains especially around the time that I was copied and redone and now that is a main printing today.... but then I was very lost and I was still finding a way on a journey not necessarily towards God before what I knew in my heart all along never dug deeper within without allowing limitations a program popular ideals I started to find a free spirituality free creativity imagination a free creativity in a free thought a freedom of mind and I continue to search now all I can tell you is that Im no longer lost and Im holding firm.....
Posted on: Sat, 29 Nov 2014 08:50:48 +0000