These past few days hav been real depressin nd fukd up....feels like dat Fukin day wen I got the worst news any brotha sista father mother etc. can get.... I miss u so much r.I.p. RENE MUNOZ... Its crazy how much mind fukd u get wit loosin a close one.. I was doing real good but the pain is way 2 deep nd the wound is still fresh.. But every time I get real fukd up jus like me nd my brotha use 2 do...hes literally here wit me. We talk nd I dont mean to but I carry a conversation.. Nd I hear his voice.. Nd I love it.. I dont wanna snap out of it cus I dont want it 2 stop.. Cuz then I realize I will never hav dat wit him no more.. So I kno Im gambling wit my life cuz wen I get fukd up Im literally in the verge of overdosing.... But dats wen hes here wit me talkin nd bullshittin like he never left.... So either Im Fukin crazy o Im in the point of death nd dats the only way u do c ur loved ones dat hav passed.... I kno I still got a life 2 live nd appreciate it cuz my brotha doesnt anymore nd plus cant 4 get Wat dat will do to moms nd pops.. Turn em crazy... But b s aside I cant wait 4 dat day... Cuz if anyone knew my brother dat Niggas conversation were like no other.. He didnt mak it 2 cal poly from his good looks.... Nigga was a genious... 2 bad the world didnt get to c the mind we lost by him dying.... I love u nd miss u big brotha rana nd I appreciate the few minutes u visit me wen Im loaded ass a motherfuker... I kno u still takin care of me nd makin sure I dont die myself... Cus y every time I get like dat u come to me... Dats a million dollar question ull tell me wen its my turn to go if Im jus crazy o the love nd responsibility dat an olda brotha has is so strong dat even tho ur dead.. U still manage 2 keep me safe nd outta trouble... Wat a trip.. I kno some people might read dis nd think Im crazy but if u really pay atte tion nd understand wat Im sayin... Its the truth.... Nd its a trip but I hope 4 everyone out there dat has siblings appreciate it cherish it respect it nd love it like if it wont be there the next minute o the next day...cuz we all living in borrowed time....
Posted on: Sun, 05 Oct 2014 08:27:42 +0000