Thirteen years ago today I was getting my kids up to take my son to kindergarten. We were stationed in Hawaii at the time and in the midst of the most horrific divorce possibly known to man. My former life (as Nana calls it!) marriage was filled with so many horrible and damaging things that I cant speak of and wouldnt wish upon anyone. The divorce process was even more horrific, manipulative and just plain spiteful. Kids and I were kicked out of military housing during the process because he had so many connections and wanted us out so he control even more than he already was. Although I am a Veteran myself...I was treated so very poorly by the Chain of Command and my kids and I paid the price because of sheer manipulation. As I was getting the kids ready in the crummy motel we were forced into because we were essentially homeless....I checked my phone and there was a message from my Mother Sarah...check the news...the world has changed forever. So I turned the T.V on and immediately shuffled the 3 kids back to the bedroom so they wouldnt see. The night before I had been thinking how someone could be so cruel especially with our kids involved...and then I woke to see all the awfulness of what was unfolding in our Nation. Nothing short of horrific and devastating. And now I had to focus on my upcoming court date a few days later otherwise he and all of his connections would make it so I never saw my children again. I was now so torn with emotions for 2 major reasons but I had to keep my own head on straight. My Mother and Sister Amy Coughlin Beaulieu were supposed to come support me and my kids for the upcoming court date. Something came up last minute and they werent able to make our originally scheduled plans with the flights out of Boston. I was very upset and anxious and desperately needed their support. This is the BLESSING IN DISGUISE - They would have been on one of the planes that hit the Twin Towers. I think about that every year and am so grateful for whatever the issue was that deterred their original plans. I was so upset with them at the time because I needed them so. I ended up going to court alone because obviously there would be no more flights going out of Boston any time soon and my court date was still on. His Seedy Lawyer had the nerve to get up and vehemently protest against my Mother and Sister testifying by phone as they could have gotten another flight. Yes..of course...two days after over 3,000 people perished and the Nation is destroyed and terrorism is rampant. How unreasonable of us. 9/11 holds so many different emotions and reminders for me and truly makes me appreciate every darn thing and to not take anything for granted. Again...I was always thinking how could anyone be so cruel and manipulative...regarding my own ridiculous scenario at the time. And then that day happened and it put so many things into even more prospective for me. My kids and I are all safe and sound (with Scott!) and take nothing for granted. God Bless all the fallen ones and their families and I hope they are healing. xoxoxo
Posted on: Thu, 11 Sep 2014 15:00:10 +0000