This is my goodbye to you. Its not as sad as I thought it would be. Only because I dont know who you are anymore, and you dont know me. I have finally outgrown Middletown and West Milton Ohio. It hit me today. Looking out at the beautiful gulf coast. Looking at the person I am today compared to where I was two years ago, or even, three months ago. It occurred to me that I only get on Facebook to read about the lives of people I used to know. As if reading about the mundane aspects of your life would substitute an actual friendship. This is my farewell. My past has been a ball and chain locked onto my ankle for years. Now I dont have to drag it around anymore. Sadly, every friend I have on this website is just that, a memory. What used to be. Kimi Ann Kinner, you were my only friend in grade school. Though I dont know where you are, what youre doing with your life, or whether youre happy or not, all I can think of when I think of you is me being a 4th grader again. I looked forward to coming to school because at least I had someone to sit with at lunch. You werent just my best friend, you were the best friend ever. The best friend a person could ever had, but you didnt even know it because I never told you. Well, I am telling you now, and also, thank you for being my friend. Chelsey Scott You were an awesome sister. I say that because you had a lot to put up with. A lot to worry about (and still worry about Im sure). Everyone in my life asks me about my big sister. Sadly, all I can tell them is that she was born December 21st 1990. We lived together, but I somehow can only remember bitter memories moreso the better ones. I remember looking into your eyes and seeing so much pain the day you told me Roy tried to fight for me. I remember the venom in your voice because of Pam. I remember laying in a tent with you in the backyard, one of the last visits I ever had with Roy. I remember wanting to say I know you dont want to hang out with me, I know you could be doing ANYTHING else with your weekend than spending it with your little sister... but I need you right now. Unspoken words are the most hurtful. If I could go back to that time, I would have tried harder to be a better little sister. I never once allowed myself to form a real bond with you or Roy or his wives because I couldnt walk away from Middletown. Which is exactly why Im closing this Facebook. This is the very last part of Middletown in my life. Tyler Sparks You were my teenage dream that I held onto for so long. I remember writing Mrs. Stephanie Sparks all over my notebooks and folders. But something happened to you between the time we left Middle school and entered high school. And something happened to me too. I didnt want you to get involved because I didnt want you to get hurt. And honestly, I was too ashamed to say anything. I was too ashamed to tell you that you wouldnt be my first kiss because it had already been stolen from me by a 38 year old man. I felt I didnt deserve you because you deserved more than me. Youve reserved a special (slightly awkward) part in my memory and past. Bitter sweet. There is no purpose in remembering something that was never meant to be. But you know Ill always hold onto that sweet feeling of holding someones hand while Im so scared that I could cry. Even if you didnt know what was happening. Adela Deaton I was jealous of you for the longest time. Lol. Not only were you prettier, you had the most awesome boyfriend ever, AND you were smart. But you were my best friend in high school. And summer camp XD. I dont blame you for Jacob. That was an accident waiting to happen lol. Whitley Beachler You taught me something I cant put a price on. You taught me to be OK with myself even if everyone despises who I am. You showed me things about myself that sometimes I wish I never knew about myself. Lol. I remember you as a strong, very strong person. Warrior-like. Brit N. Seals You were the reason I didnt skip home room and Spanish. Though I never really said much, I listened to you. I was so lonely, I didnt want to talk, I just needed someone to talk to me. Thank you for that. Isnt it crazy what we thought was important back then just seems like a joke now? I was jealous sometimes because I wished I had your charisma. And I felt like kicking anyones ass who made fun of you, just because I thought you were an awesome person and if they were going to pick on someone, it should have been me. Not you. Hannah Snively You dont need anyone to complete you. You are awesome just by yourself. Dont need any help there. Marissa Ferguson Stay the way you are. Please. Dont become like the trash you have to live around. Dont become bitter. Dont become a mother too early. And for the love of God do NOT settle for less than what youre worth. Which is a lot, so those boys should start looking to get a REALLY good job to treat you like the queen you are. You are literally the sweetest person I ever met. Suzanne Alyse Barnum Same for you. Dont sacrifice your sophistication, class, intelligence and beauty. Youre going to do well in life. Brittney LeAnn Feltner God I remember when we were little. Youre one of the only people I remember from before the 2nd grade. I wish I had been a better friend to you. Whoever is your friend now should hold onto you. You are a very sweet person with a heart of gold. Justin Smith Youre the reason I loved going to math in middle school. I feel like there is something I have to say, but I cant think of it, so Ill say this: Thank you for being my friend even though sometimes I smelled REALLY bad because my family were trashy people. Youre an awesome person and you are going to make the dreams of a beautiful woman someday. Tiffani Cheri Smallwood You are going to do so much in your life, Im almost jealous until I remember Im there with you. You can do anything you put your mind to. With brains, beauty and a good character- you cant go wrong. I really hope the best for you. Kimberly Land Im so happy for you. Thank you for being awesome, especially in those crappy times when I REALLY needed a cigarette buddy. The peacefulness in your aura often times set my mind at ease. You rub off on people. Whether there were 5 McSkillets, 4 BEC bagels and no biscuits or if I had just got done arguing with my foster mom before coming to work, just being around you made me feel better. Your children are very fortunate. Jimmy Warner You were the closest thing I had to a best friend while I was in foster care. Youre the reason I tried so hard to do a good job. You are going to go far with management. Thank you for being there with a joke when I REALLY needed to laugh after crying for so long. You made my life better without even knowing it. Lillie Black Im sorry. Thank you for believing in me 2 and 3 times even when I was a let down. Thats all a kid really needs. Whether its coming from a manager or a mother. Brandy Patterson Youre an all-around awesome person. I never really looked up to anyone until I met you. Seriously. Where you came from really struck a chord in my heart because of my family and past. To see someone come out so strong really inspired me. I loved coming to work because of you. (And felt so bad when I made your job harder). Ill never forget that strength I saw in you. Thank you. Im not mad at anyone on here. Its just time for me to let go of my past and move on. Thank you for being a part of my life, having a hand in the woman I have become today.
Posted on: Fri, 11 Jul 2014 21:33:24 +0000