This is probably a long post to read, so for those of you taking the time to read it, i thank you in advance lol. Ive been wanting to share about all the eye openers of the timing of my hospital stay and my experience leading up to the day of discharge from the hospital. These eye openers being confirmation that my dear spiritual God has been and always has had my back and has always been way ahead of me as long as I continue to put one foot in front of the other. AT the same time, this post will act as my gratitude list for today. Now that Im back home and am feeling a little better, here goes. I hope it makes as much sense to you as it does me. Coincidences? I told Roy about a month ago that I was going to quit smoking a couple of weeks prior to our Austin trip on Dec. 20th because I didnt want to have to go out in the cold to smoke and I didnt want to wait just prior to the visit and chance being moody while there for the week with his family. Ive learned to be careful what you pray for cause ya just might get it! So for months prior I have been praying, trying to be careful with my wording, so my prayer has been along this line: Please help me with the willingness and courage to stop smoking without the necessity of major medical issues. I always check the clearance section at Walgreens every time Im there and around the same time I bought nicotine gum for $5 and nicotine lozenges for $4 and have had them on my dresser to prepare for that day. Because my son was employed by Walgreens, I also receive his discount, which is 15% for name brands and 25% off for walgreens brand. These products were Walgreens brands so that would make those prices 25% less. these discounts that ive saved on this purchase as well as other Walgreens purchases during my frequent visits there can now be applied to the rest of our deductible. So with the above information, isnt it something that: 1. my estimated date of quitting happened around the same time I ended up in the hospital, where I didnt have the choice to pick up a cigarette, but rather they put a nicotine patch on my arm each day I was there. And isnt it something that when Ive quit in the past, the toughest days for me were the 3rd, 4th, and 5th days and I got discharged on the 5th day, otherwise known as over the hurdle day for me. 2. although my experience/diagnosis would probably be considered a major medical issue, what I meant in my prayer by my request was that without having to first tell me youre gonna die by tomorrow or have limited time above ground. He heard me and knew what I meant because he gave me a medical issue strong enough to catch my attention without having to first hear those words, but instead I heard form the admitting doctor the first day, the damage is done, you cannot undo the damage thats been done but you can discontinue the damage from being done. 3. this happened before the end of the year, so the insurance deductible we have to meet will be less than if it happened at the beginning of the year. 4. that treatment has me well enough prior to the austin trip and dr. says i can still go. 5. that when I bring prescriptions to Walgreens, the one insurance didnt cover is nicotine patches, so I have to buy them over the counter. With my sons discount, I received 25% off the Walgreens brand,. As an after thought, I didnt even realize this blessing until my boss asked me during her visit if they have hooked me up to oxygen reminding me of the blessing that I didnt require oxygen to breath while I was in there and realize the COPD is progressive and if I pick up a cigarette, that I would most likely experience that YET during my next trip to the hospital (and yes it will happen). I am sooo blessed to be sober/clean because theres no doubt in my mind had I not been, my prior certainly wouldnt have been my health, but rather would have been the partying and as a result, I would have ignored my bodys cries and not followed up with medical care and I could have very well heard those words Im sorry, youre not going to make it. There were so many blessings/eye openers ive thought about during my experience and Im not sure I have them all down for sharing on this post, but you can be sure if I think of anything Ive left out, I will be sharing it. Lastly, the doctor told me when he was discharging me that he was very impressed with my recovery during my hospital stay, the difference from what i sounded like when I was admitted (Roy said I sounded like I was underwater) to my day of discharge, I know in my heart that part of my recovery was due to my positive attitude, which I was able to keep for a couple of reasons: 1. Observing mom from afar and the inspiration I receive from her in doing so. the positive attitude she keeps, and especially when and since her dealing with her tongue cancer about 4 years (i think) ago (and still cancer free!) and where it brought her today. 2. The encouragement and love I felt by all your supportive, loving, encouraging posts, prayers, calls, texts and visits (and for the homemade soup susan! lol). A couple of surprise visitors I had, had me doubly surprised, because they were people Im not in touch with on a regular basis other than facebook and/or seeing their face at a meeting and sharing hugs. My world has grown because of you all and I am so very very thankful. So, once again, Id like to express my deepest, sincere gratitude for all of you who helped carry me through this experience, helping me to remain positive and no doubt, aiding in my recovery. Yup, my God is awesome =D Love you all and god bless you all.
Posted on: Tue, 16 Dec 2014 16:03:36 +0000
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