This is what my beautiful wife wrote this morning and I wanted to share. Theres meaning to this song. Its new, but if it had come out a few years back, I would have shown you, Duncan, the words. Not one person understands me the way you do, and even then, sometimes you just shake your head. 26 years ago, I was introduced to the man I would marry. I was 13, he was 17. He totally creeped on me from the gas station as I snobbishly walked between my house and my grandmas. A good friend managed to push us together. I thought he was really tall, of course I was only 5 and had super hairy legs, but he had a bad boy/hockey player attitude that I fell for. Much to my mothers dismay we continued going out and after 3 weeks he finally kissed me. I honestly thought I had cooties or something. It was a really good year and a really great summer. I remember the little green susuki (trashcan) and the stereo boom box, wed pack up and hit the gravel back roads. Mixed tapes, windows down and good times. I moved away that summer, but we toughed it out for awhile...then we broke up. My heart literally fell apart and out of my chest. His friends were to blame. Alas it didnt end there. In my grade 11 year he moved in with me and my family. Love #1 back on. We did our thing, we started growing up, we started making plans. Me and him were making us. Fast forward to graduation, moving out, moving to Prince George moving back to Tumbler and becoming a family. Our baby boy born in September 1994, the second love of my life. We continued growing, and planning. On July 15th, 1997 I married the boy I fell for. Our wedding though small, was grande! Friends and family and love! One year later minus a week a beautiful baby girl completed our family. She was the final puzzle piece. We were whole. Unfortunately relationships have their ups and downs, sometimes they crash and burn, sometimes we fight for what we have, sometimes we just give up. For me, it was crashing and burning and giving up. I lost who I was, where I was. My soul had turned in to an empty void. But staying in the state I was in, mentally and emotionally, was only causing our complete family to seriously fray and fall apart. So twice, I left my family. I broke the puzzle. I made it weaker. Duncan tried his best to keep it together. This song represents this. He let me go. He have me the road, to find myself, to figure myself out. He didnt want to, but he did. And when I was ready to come back, he was there. No judgement. Just memories and love. Fast forward to today. I know where I belong and who I am. Ive put to much of myself, my heart and my soul into my family to let it go completely. The road always led home, my heart knew where it belonged, but it needed to let my mind figure it out as well. My husband, the man I married, the road trips, the laughter, the craziness, the tears, the fighting and all the little things in between. Plus I saved his life;) You know me all to well. My secrets, my fears, my heartaches, my emotions. To leave you will all of those would mean I would have to kill you. So heres to 17 years of marriage, minus a few months;) Heres to many more. Remember how we said wed grow old together? Always and forever, Alicia
Posted on: Tue, 15 Jul 2014 14:16:32 +0000