To be honest I have had a lot to chew on tonight and most of it has came in the past few hours. Where is my career headed ? What is going to happen to the ministry? How bad do I want to become the first out right Shotokan Black belt under Master Robert StClair? How can I fix my family issues? I am often asked by my friend, mentor and teacher Robert StClair where does the energy and the effort come from , the drive . For a while now it has been to be honest ministy , in fact Turn Ministry. Man what a run we have had. I have made a few friends that man It is going to be a honor to one day set at the gates of heaven with and just worship Jesus. I have met some people though time, enegry, and effort was given 100% they could care less if Turn Ministries makes it or not. One excuse after the other but it all comes down to we are and where a joke to them.All the hours my family and I poured into them and in the end, they have nothing to do with us anymore. So then it went physical fitness. I wanted to be in shape so bad , figured that if i got in shape maybe people wouldnt laugh at me , and take me as looser or a joke. Then came martial arts again in my life. In the first two years back in , I got by. It was when I met a young man that wantted to learn but didnt have the money that everything that my instructor was showing me i was showing him. I was not only his pastor but his friend and I still am. I havent seen him in 6 months but He is still my friend. It was then that i decided to teach and pursuse my Black Belt in Chun kuk Do. The Lord had other plans for me . I was to take Turn Ministries and plant a Church. Not willing to leave the martial arts behind me again , i joined StClair Martial Arts in Oak Hill. The Yong Shi Long Pai Family ,and the art of Shotokan. In these past few months goals have became reality. I will be the UMATA GRAND CHAMPION 2013 for my age division. I have been training so hard for my Black Belt, pushing my self to limits of vomit and passing out. DOing with out sleep , and losseing time with my family.Training with one of the nations best teachers and someone that I have come to know more then a teched but a friend. Tonight I set here and type all of this to say very little in the end actually.... I have nothing left to prove to anyone. I leave all my success and all my faliures on the floor.....I want you to think that I am a joke and laugh and point and make fun. Go on .DOnt trust me.....Do what ever it is that you need to to because in the end I am my greatest challenge. IN the end I will stand the Best. I will hold a natonal title. I will hold a world title. Black belt or no Black Belt. Ministry or no MInistry. In the end I will find a way to the Olympic Games.....you are either with me or against me. I have no faith in humanity at this point and there isnt one single shred of hope in my heart that tells me that you dont think this is a joke or that you will not make fun of it. I may lose 99% of the time getting to where I need to be . The only way I am every going to stop is to die....I am ready. I start at 5am . Prayers requsted and laughs welcomed. In the end dont you dare say that you stood with me if you didnt support me from the start. You may not like what you hear. I am the real deal. Your 15 min is up my time is now . TRAINHARD !
Posted on: Mon, 24 Jun 2013 03:14:26 +0000
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