Today I am going to write about how the gift of being humble and forgiving is my biggest blessing in life. I have a type A personality and I would like to believe that I do no wrong and the world owes me something for all my bad luck! The world owes me nothing.I have made every bad choice in my life by myself. I am not a victim or a vulnerable, sad woman. I an exactly the opposite. I deserve the things I put up with and dont change for myself. I am able to make changes and take risks, but its so much easier to sit afraid and ashamed. Im sick of being invisible and I am going to work on myself as much as I can. I can be the person I know I am capable of being. Its suffocating and painful to avoid making changes or better choices. Two always seems better than one and Im always thinking Im not enough on my own. Well, life has given me the opportunity over and over to figure myself out and I know this much ....I need to love myself enough to stop trying to force anyone to even like me. I am letting my life slip away feeling like I have been wronged. No one is responsible for the anger I feel when people dont understand me. I own my hard head, stubbornly reluctant to admit blame for anything person. I am going to give myself forgiveness. Im going to actually whole heartedly submerse myself into achieving soul integrity and apply it to my life every chance I can. I forgive myself and everyone for any wrong doing. Im starting over with a new perspective and attitude. Im going to accept that I am a fragile human being and trust that accepting that is going to get me a lot farther in life. Banging my head against a brick wall is painful and I have walked away from my heart too many times. I redeem myself as I stare at the mess Ive created so many times and say enough is enough. Its time to take ownership and let go of any obstacle I build around me to shield me from allowing myself to move on like a graceful woman! From now on it is time to really put myself back together once again. I have to look in the mirror and stop wondering what people see and tell myself what I see is the answer to my every downfall. The selfie obsession is my insecurity to feel self worth. I got too angry at my friend who pointed it out to me and publicly threw a fit! Im sorry friend you were offering me chance to reflect and I missed the opportunity. I am the only one limiting myself from anything and that is going to work in rebuilding me strong! I will be honest to myself every day and without trying to over analysis everything so it makes sense in my favor. Im simply going to be brutally honest with the selfie me! No one is trying to find me! Im not lost and Im not broken. Im in the place called self denial and lonely. I am leaving the self pity party. No one showed up. Time to rewrite my life one day at a time. One hour at a time if necessary. Im not going to scream silently. I am going to speak loud and clear. I may fail and if I do, I will not get up to blame someone or something. I will get up and do it right. No more room or time for slacking my life away. I was born a genius and its time to make a comeback. I havent done the best I can at anything yet. Goodbye to the old me and hello to the willingness to be humble and forgiving while taking the chance to be the best me! Carp diem! My wish is for everyone who has ever second guessed themselves to freeze and go with your most honest and first instinct. Thats the answer. Ill be fine! Im out of my own mind finally and ready to fix every single one of my self inflicted imperfections. Im giving myself back to me! All of me. I loved myself yesterday for she is gone. I will love myself tomorrow because she will be who she is meant to be. Mostly importantly, I love myself NOW its my present. It fell onto me from out of nowhere! Like magic! Cheers to my own success!
Posted on: Sun, 06 Jul 2014 06:06:25 +0000
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