Today I experienced once more the grief waves that are a normal part of losing someone you love and who loved you. I lost my Mom on March 3rd of this year and since then it has been a journey of shock,sorrow,acceptance of reality,getting on with it,bad days and nights, fond memories,sad memories and simply...missing being with her and knowing she was around and I could visit and talk with her. Losing her has impacted me in ways I never thought it would. I lost my Dad in 1990 so a lot of memories of those times are surfacing. The wound of losing him is not fresh like this one. I remember how traumatic and sorrowful it was for Mom when Dad passed away suddenly with a heart attack. I was the oldest man in the family at that point and was there to emotionally support both Mom and my younger brother Gerry. There were many friends to help us out at that point and I will always remember and be grateful to them. The same holds true for our recent loss of Mom. Many people who were my friends came to aid and support us at our time of loss and beyond--still happening. We are blessed to have them in our lives. I guess I just wanted to share this today because it has been a day when Mom was really on my mind as I just got the raw unedited video that my good friend Jamie Kelley took at Moms Memorial at the end of March. I have not seen any of it but another very good--and longtime--friend Ken Stewart is going to review the video and hopefully we are able to do whatever editing is needed and produce a lasting record of a very sad and beautiful day when Gerry and I were held up in our grief with both eloquent speaking from Roger Brant,Faron Andrei and people in the gathering who opened up about their relationship with Mom and how she impacted their lives--Mary Orban told of how Mom used to come with me to the music store she was working in back when Mom was is mobile shape--and dressed up in her leather jacket and stylin big as she was known to do--and sit and play the piano while I was off in the guitar department (go figure). Mary told of how Mom would take sheet music to check tunes out but would mostly play songs from memory and how it was such a beautiful experience for Mary to hear her and talk with her. There were lots of stories and I know watching them told again will be both beautiful and sad--she was an amazing and lively human being. Very social and strong minded. Miss you Mom and love you forever.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 00:57:12 +0000
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