Today is a new.day. Today is a.day i woke to understand life is and can be short... Today i want.to thank our FATHER OUR GOD IN HEAVEN OUR LORD FOR ALLOWING ME TO LIVE TO.SEE ANOTHER.DAY..TO UNDERSTAND.MYSELF IN WAYS.I.NEVER HONESTY UNDERSTOOD... IVE LOST MY GRANDFATHER THIS.WEEK THOMAS COBLER .. YOU.ALL.ARE.AWARE OF.. I COULDNT GO TO THE.WAKE OR THE FUNERAL. I HAVE HAD A.HARD.TIME.DEALING.WITH DEATH.FOR.SO.SO LONG...I.LOVED.MY GRANDFATHER SO.SO.MUCH... WE WERE.NOT.CLOSE AS WE SHOULD HAVE BEEN OR.COULD HAVE.BEEN. EVEN THOUGH I HAVEARE.SO.MANY ATEMPS EVER.THE YEARS TO.TRY.TO BE CLOSE...GRANDPA I PRAY.YOU ARE WELCOMED IN HEAVEN WITH OPEN ARMS I PRAY YOU SUFFER NO.MORE. I PRAY YOU ARE.IN PEACE.AND HAPPY AND JOYFULL AND HAVE.AN ETERNAL ETERNITY IN HEAVEN... I LIVE.YOU.AND YOU WILL BE.SO.MISSED........ I HAVE.LOST SO.MANY IN MY.LIFE OVER THE YEARS.. FISHING.BUDDIES. BROTHER.IN LAW.FRIENDS. UNCLES COUSINS... ALMOST LOST.MY.BROTHER. MACK BULLARD IN A.PLANE CRASH.IN ALABAMA 22 YEARS AGO HE WAS.IN.COMA BUT.LIVED... AND I.AM.SO.THANKFULL TO OUR GOD HE. MADE.IT ... I HAVE NOT.DEALT WITH DEATH.AT ALL.AS I.SHOULD OR SHOULD HAVE. OVER THE YEARS.... I HAVE KEPT SO MUCH REGRET AND HURT INSIDE.FOR SO.SO LONG. AND I HAVE FOR SO.LONG IN MANY WAYS INTERFERE WITH EVERYDAY.LIFE FOR.MYSELF. NOT.ONLY THAT I HAVE LET SO.MUCH I HURT.OVER.I INTERFERE WITH.MY LIFE WITH MY FAMILY... .Y KIDS.MY EX ....WIFE... .. AND FOR.THREE YEARS IN A.NEW.RELATIONSHIP I HAVE ALSO REALISED I HAVE BEEN NO.DIFFERENT I HAVE.JUST LET ALL.MY.HURT.AND QUILT.AND ANGER BECOME A PROBLEM FOR A WOMAN AND HER FAMILY I CARE.FOR I LOVE SO MUCH... I WAS RAISED BETTER.THAN I HAVE. LED MY LIFE FOR.THE PAST TWENTY.YEARS.OR.SO... I COME.FROM GOOD PEOPLE... CHRISTIAN FOLK...I.COME.FROM.GOOD GENES... AND.I HAVE. LET SO.MANY HONEST CAREING PEOPLE.DOWN TIME.AND TIME.AGAIN... MY.MOTHER.MY FATHER THE WOMAN I LIVE.WITH ALLY HEART.AND SOUL HAS TRIED AND TRIED.TO TELL .ME WHATEVER IT IS IN THE PAST LET IT.GO...THE.PAST.COUPLE.DAYS I HAVE REALISED YOUR.ALL RIGHT... AND. I HAVE REALISED I.AM BETTER.THAN.THIS... AND.MO.WOMAN NO.MOTHER FATHER NO CHILDREN.OR.FRIEND DESERVES.OR.NEEDS. THE KIND OF.PERSON I HAVE BEEN IN.THERE.LIFE....IVE LOST ENOUGH FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND.LIVED.ONES YO DEATH. AND RELATIONSHIPS BETWEEN FAMILY.AND FRIENDS. AND MARRIAGE AND RELATIONSHIP WITH THOSE I DO LOVE...WITH ALL.MY HEART AND.SOUL..... I CANNOT SAY.THAT.THESIS.EASY.TO.PUT.OUT.THERE FOR ALL.TO.SEE. HOWEVER.FOR ME....AS. THE.MAN THE.FRIEND.THE.SON THE FAMILY MEMBER.THE FATHER.THE.LOVER THE FRIEND.I.WANT.AND CAN BE.AND NEED.TO BE...WITH ALL HEART.MY.SOULY.BEING I CAN FINALLY FEEL SEE UNDERSTAND ALL THE PAIN AND HEAVY ACHE.AND WORRY I HAVE CAUSED...FOR FAR.TO.LONG... I KNOW I STILL MAY HAVE.LOST A WOMAN AND HER CHILDREN IN MY LIFE. AND MAY BE.TOO LATE... AND.IF.SO ILL HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS...THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF ANGER.REGRET.AND BITTERNESS.IN MY HEART FOR TO.MANY.YEARS..AND IT.GOES.ALL.THE WAY BACK TO MY GREAT.GRANDMOTHER ...MY HEART I LEFT HER SO.MANY YEARS AGO AND DID NOT.LOOK BACK. I.WENT BACK.LATER YEARS.LATER.AFTER SHE WAS.IN REST HOME WITH ALTIMERS THAT HAS BEEN MY REGRET MY.PAIN FOR ALL TO.LONG....SHE.WAS TO.ME MY.MOTHER. MY.GRANDMOTHER. MY WORLD MY.FRIEND . MY HEART......AND I JUST LEFT ALABAMA AND LEFT HER .SO.MUCH I.NEVER WAS ABLE.TO.TELL HER. SAY TO HER ... IT.TOOK MY GRANDFATHERS MY MOTHERS FATHER TO PASS AWAY THE WOMAN I LOVES GRANDFATHERS THIS WEEK ALSO.....IT.TOOK ME REALISEING DEATH AND LOOSING THOSE YOU LOVE TO FINALLY RELALISE LIFE IS SHORT. AND THOSE WHO ARE HERE NOW THOSE WHO CARE.FOR.YOU NOW. THOSE.YOU CARE.FOR DESERVE GOOD...TO.NOT TAKE THINGS FOR GRANIT DO NOT TAKE LOVE ....LIFE.... FRIENDS ..FAMILY ....JOB....CHILDREN.........HEALTH ...FOR GRANIT ......TODAY I WANT TO PUBLICLY APOLOGIZE TO.EVERYONE FOR ALL THE HEARTACHE AND WORRY. TODAY IS A NEW DAY AND TODAY IS A DAY I KNOW WHO I AM...TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF A.NEW AND POSITIVE LIFE ..I PRAY FOR FORGIVENESS FROM EVERYONE INCLUDING ALL ESPECIALLY MY GOD MY FATHER IN HEAVEN..TODAY WILL AND IS THE DAY I AM THE PERSON THE MAN THE FATHER THE SON THE BROTHER THE UNCLE. THE.COUSIN THE FRIEND THE LOVER I WAS RAISED BY MY FATHER JOHN BULLARD SENIOR MY GREAT GRANDMOTHER ANNIE WHARTON THE.CHURCH OF CHRIST OF HUNTSVILLE ALABAMA RAISED ME TO BE........TODAY.... IS HERE AND TOMORROW IS NOT PROMISED...I UNDERSTAND WHO I AM NOW.. TO ALL MY FAMILY..I LOVE.YOU ...ALL.... TO ....Robin stone Edwards AND FAMILY .....I LOVE YOU ALL..HEART..MM BODY ...MIND.....AND ...SOUL...........
Posted on: Mon, 17 Mar 2014 19:29:28 +0000
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