Today is a test of the emergency broadcasting system... had a guest go off on me for something someone on a previous shift did not do, I apologized profusely & she said she didnt care about my apology & said, whatever, I am getting over charged for something I didnt do where I reside, cant get out of it, have to just swallow it & pay it. Child support payments got cut way down & at the most inopportune time, when I truly need it the most like by 11 am tomorrow morning. I told my best friend today that I feel like I am being punished & not sure what I have done or to whom. I was up late last night & spent time with the Lord til the wee hours of the morning & committed to the Lord & purposed in my heart that from this day forward, no matter what is done to me or thrown at me, I will praise God anyway, without getting upset or responding negatively, not even in thought. What you think in your heart is as good as done... choosing to think on good things regardless of how bad or negative someone or something may be in my every day life. This day has felt like the test of all tests & as if they have all come at one time, but I havent responded negatively & I have stayed away from thinking in that manner also & I am still smiling, happy, cheerful & joyful on the outside as well as the inside. & Still thanking & praising the Lord for His Mercy, His Grace, His Blessings, His Love & even ALL this testing. First time in a long time that I have been able to go through this much stuff & not get down & depressed & worried & upset. WOOOOO SAHHHHHH!!!! WHEW!!!!
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 00:25:16 +0000