Today is the tenth of March for me it marks 16weeks since I lost my child I am not well with my loss. I can not come to terms with the cold hards fact that he is gone, I feel it will ever be ok . People say time will make it better or be happy he went peacefully (not sure anyone goes peacefully) or that he is at rest or with God or at peace......to tell you the truth all these things just make it worse ... I know people dont know what to say I get it how could they say anything to make it better, this is impossible no one can fix it Todd is gone and an enormous part of me has died with him. I will never be the same how could I be. I am a lost soul and a brokenhearted person. I think that as time goes on I feel worse the nightmare has become life ....... the realization that he will never come home again he will never say Mom get this or that he will never put his face into the sun and say Mom it is really a nice day today .... He will never say Mom I love you to pieces ....I love you to pieces...if you have lost someone in your life that you have loved so deeply and totally unconditionally then you understand what I am trying to say ...you will understand when I say I find just trying to take a breath the headrest part of life..... Thank you for taking time and listening and please take time everyday to tell everyone in your life that you love that you are listening and that you love them no matter what .....become unconditional with your heart...say I love you .......that is what our lesson always was ...to love and in turn we will be loved.
Posted on: Tue, 11 Mar 2014 06:00:35 +0000