Tonight, I went the Shore Road. Ive never been there since that night when I ran searching for my son. I was alone and missing my Joel. The drive seemed just as long as it did that night , that night I had hoped that it was wrong, that it wasnt true. I never realized how long that road was. Every turn, hope...... no flashing lights. Darkness. It was a beautiful beautiful night I remember. I sobbed my heart out driving that road tonight. Picturing what it must have been like. Breaks my heart. That was my son. My little boy. My Joel. Heavy grief. Indescribable sorrow. I wailed at the unfairness of it all. Why? Why did God even give me him to love? Why break my heart in taking him from me? I loved him!!! I finally found the spot. Marked by a beautiful cross in memory of the MacIntyre boys. Beautiful. I stood there in my grief ,heartbroken. This was where our lives changed. This was where the beginning of the life we knew was ending. Such tragedy. We will be marked for life with his absence from our lives. I looked as far as I could see in the dark, it was getting cold and there was one more place I wanted to visit before home. I couldnt see very far. Whats there to see anyway? He is not there. This was sacred ground though, this was the place where His Saviour was beginning His walk from the splendours of Heaven to meet my Joel in the valley of death. Can I say this? How wonderful is THAT? The 23rd Psalm reads,yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shalt fear no evil, for Thou art with me. Thats a promise , a comforting promise of God. Jesus laid claim on Joels soul when Joel trusted Gods word to be true, believed that Jesus died for him. He held onto that claim all his life. Im thankful for it. So who is God to take my son? He is everything. Our dreams , our hopes , for our son, for this world ended that night. But God in His merciful loving kindness has given us a perfect Hope. Where there is no crying, no sorrow, no death. Eternal life with Him. This song makes my heart rejoice in Him. This is our God and what a God He is. Its faith, that makes a sinner whole. Faith in a God who loves, who gave all He had, His Son, so we can look beyond all we see here, look up in faith and see it all. Joy cometh in the morning. Even so Lord Jesus, come. Someday I will see my Joel again. ⚓ This is not the end.
Posted on: Tue, 11 Nov 2014 02:31:49 +0000