Too many emotions going through me at once, my heart feels like it broke into a zillion tiny pieces. Please pray for me. I have been through so many years of hurt, loss and anxiety and many failures, I need lots of prayers please. I pray for peace and joy for those who suffer depression along side of me. Deppression doesnt always show itself until its too late for some of us. Please, please , please pray for myself and others who have hid away from life and others due to this very serious disease. I was diagnosed with clinical depression while in the hospital 12/26/09 a day or so after my Craigers was born. I have struggled with my emotions since then. Ive been dishonest with myself and others for too long, I have searched and seeked God for a very long time personally and God has been weighing things that I hide from everyone for way too long. I have been struggling with depression for ever!!!! It physically hurts me. I try to smile and see the best of things, but yet I cant seem to feel inwardly how Im showing on the outside of me. I am tired of being fake. Im hurting so bad because of this disease. Ive never told a soul because of fear of judgement. Well, I know God isnt fear the devil is fear!!!! God knows my every part of my being, He knows what and who Im made of. So, with all of this being told, dont worry I have given all of my very being up to God and Ive asked Jesus to re enter my life so that I dont do anything to hurt myself or anyone. Jesus showed me two days now that Craigers is my saving Grace. Let me explain. Tuesday night I fell asleep on the couch watching tv, I woke up at 12 midnight with Craig next to me, he put a blanket over himself and I. Thats why Im convinced that God gives us children for many reasons, Craig is going on 5 years this December. He has been taking me into concideration now for almost 5 years. I see true love coming from him daily, this has been the best 5 years of my life. Last night Craig did what he did Tuesday night again. He covered me up and covered himself and slept next to me on the living room floor. I feel bad but then God says to me, Lori, I gave you Craig to show you what I want and need you to model in your life. Deppression. Get behind me I am the head and not the tail. Next day I wake up and its a new day!!!!! God loves me and He gave His Son to die for my transgressions, that is always enough for me to get up and face depression head on. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!!!!! GOD BLESS YOU WHO WILL READ THIS ABOUT ME. IM JUST SLOWLY TAKING OFF THE MASK THAT I KEPT ME HIDDEN BEHIND FOR TOO LONG. GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD. THANK YOU JESUS FOR LOVING ME AND DYING ON THE CROSS FOR MY MISTAKES:)
Posted on: Tue, 02 Dec 2014 13:32:47 +0000
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