Ummm can I be done??? (my honest feelings after today)....After I chased Ethan around the house and brought him into the dining room to prepare him for his site change, I had to convince him that everything would be ok, that I promise to hug him after and that its ok to cry!! I spring load the insertion device, lay it upon his little belly and squeeze the top and bottom of the thing together and it POPS into his skin making that noise that we both already hate....I got all the adhesive stuck down and he just let it all out!!! I hugged him forever telling him I loved him...thats all I could do....because really, I just wanted to cry and have an emotional breakdown myself. I am allowed to hate diabetes sometimes....I do hate that keeping my boy alive and healthy requires pain and discomfort to him on a daily basis. Yes, I am thankful for many things and I am also strong most of the time but even the strong need to just cry and not be ok once in a while. So I breathe, move on from the moment and try hard to not look back so I can be ready to face the next. Love you all, your words of encouragement mean so much and are a part of how I can be so OK!! And really, I am fine....hugs xoxo
Posted on: Wed, 02 Apr 2014 00:05:00 +0000
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