Warning - this might be a bit TLDR, but I need to get this out in the community. There is a lot I respectably do not want to share publicly, but I really want you to know a bit about myself. There will be a much larger blog post in the future, but for now here it is. __________________________________________________________ The last 30 days have been a roller coaster of crazy emotions, leading to a since of calmness and reflection. Tomorrow I am heading out to GP Albuquerque, and even since GP Oklahoma City, there has been some pronounced changes in my life. It is amazing what can happen when you let go, address your core feelings, and begin the process of allowing yourself to be yourself. It is a crazy concept, kind of like coming out of your emotional closet, and realizing that you are who you are, and feeling comfortable with yourself. I have made a lot of mistakes in the past, but I am really grateful for all of you that have not judged me (pun intended), even though I have been a self-centered, egotistical person, who thought that the only way to get ahead was to be better than everyone else. It is not about pushing into a role, or trying to force people to see things from your perspective. It is about molding yourself over time into who you want to be, while using those skills to build other people up. It is not about me, I am one of 4500 amazing people, and although I have amazing life experiences to give, so do others. Everyone can make an impact in some little way, no matter your role, experience, or actual level. I have built a terrible reputation with some in the judge program, and this is something that can not be changed overnight. I am personally done being someone I am not, it is time to see the real me, done running from the pain of the past, and into a great future, no matter where it leads. I can not think all the amazing people that stood by me the last 2 years, from Sean, David, Jared, Toby, Richter, Lems, Riki, Eric, Colleen, Will, Leo, Steven, Jess, and the rest of you. This has not been an easy process, but I look forward to the end result when it comes. It is no longer about myself, but those I can help meet their goals. I finally get it - not just about judging, but about life - let go and be yourself! See you in ABQ - Hope to continue the string of best shows ever!
Posted on: Thu, 21 Nov 2013 07:04:15 +0000
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