Warning..vulnerable long post alert... This quote right here could probably sum up much of my life. Like many of you Im sure, my life has been full of challenges. I think sometimes when your a positive person people just assume that your life must be or must have been easy. Well that was absolutely not the case. I grew up in a abusive broken home, which got much worse when my parents got divorced. I was so scared of someone finding out that when we moved to a new city I became extremely shy and developed a ton of anxiety around making new friends in my school or bringing them home. So I would eat lunch in the bathroom and walk during any break so I appeared busy and that I wasnt just TERRIFIED to talk to people. My anxiety and depression reached a breaking point though and had to drop out of school at 16. I knew that I needed to leave that abuse, work full time and support myself. So thats what I did. And when all my old friends were going off to college I was working 60 hours plus a week at 3 jobs determined to not fail. And let me tell you I had some ROUGH days. So many days of trying to hold myself together when years of abuse was taking its toll. Group counselling helped, even though I was the youngest by far in a room of woman that were 40+ that I had trouble relating to. But I was DETERMINED that I would not let what happened to me DEFINE my life and who I was. I knew in my heart of hearts that God was still there during it all and if years of going to Christian School/Church/Reading the Bible had taught me anything it was that we ALL have a purpose in life. So I knew that if I just didnt give up and push aside the pain but started to heal myself that God would use me to help others, and thats when God started to put people into my life that helped me. I made some incredible supportive friends, as well as woman who had been struggling like me and needed a friend to pray for them and hug them and tell them they would get through it. I KNOW thats my calling in life, to CONQUER whatever challenges come my way and share that with other woman so they know that despite their circumstances, their challenges, their past. That you can turn that into GOOD, and turn that shame into PURPOSE. That you can go from being depressed and suicidal and full of anxiety to a positive happy person helping others, and if I can help just one Woman know that she can overcome it all too an inspire her to do that. Then sharing posts like this that are not easy to share will all be worth it. So I hope this helped one of you ladies out there. Xoxo
Posted on: Sun, 11 Jan 2015 17:01:21 +0000
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