Watching Her, and was thrown back by the artificial intelligence Samantha saying, Im yours, and Im not yours. In this world, most of us seem to hold onto an idea of permanence and an idea of singularity with only one other human being. While this idea is completely valid and things we may share are singular sometimes to only one other person, there is no permanence. I see what I once was, and the narrow way I used to think. My concept of the world them was of one that was small. As I have grown, learned to better understand myself, and found power in my strengths that world has grown larger and larger. Ideas that, for me, were once singular have expanded and my way of thought occurs on a multitude of levels. I constantly challenge myself to know exactly what it is that I want. In a paradoxical way the closer I come to finding the answer the further away I seem to be. Its like looking down a hallway am seeing a room at the end, and believe the every I need will be in that room. The hallways is long and narrow, and in the darkness and isolation I learn a lot about myself. I develop a concept of what that room will be and how satisfied I will be to have so much more than the darkness of the hallways and my own thoughts. When I finally get to the room I am filed with joy in the things the room has to offer. There is a desk, there is paper to write down my thoughts. There is a box full of wonderful toys that I have never played with before. There are at materials, and I love that I can express myself through colors and forms. There are windows and I see beautiful things out the windows that bring me joy; birds, green trees, running water to swim in, mountains to climb, and other people I will one day get to experience. After dreaming about that outside world I realize there is a TV in the room and that is a whole different type of world I can get myself wrapped up in. There is also a person in the room that I fall in love with, and cherish our companionship. Others may come in and out of the room. Some of them I rather enjoy spending time with, others I find quite distasteful and even annoying wishing they had not come into my room. I say my room because after spending so much time in it and getting to know all the things it has to offer I now feel connected to it, and a sense of ownership. Sometimes I look back at the long dark hallway, and the light at the end from which I came. I recognize that light as the person I once was, and that smaller world I once lived in. While I am proud of my accomplishments there and the life I once lived I am glad that I took the risk of venturing into the dark hallway of the unknown. It is after this reflection that I realize that this new bigger world I am in is merely a room, that there are multiple doors to others rooms, and the the other rooms make up what is a fairly large building. I also visualize in my mind that there are stairs going down to the bottom floor, and there is a door to the outside. The building is like another larger world consisting of many small worlds, just like the one that I am in. But outside the building there is something larger than worlds. There are many unknowns that I have yet to experience, and from my window I see a path that is mine and mine alone to walk. I stop for a period of time that could be days, months, or even years. In this new world of mine I have become comfortable. I have many things to keep me occupied, and many things I have grown to love. I have also got to know the other rooms well, and there are many other people in the other rooms within this building that I have grown to love dearly. I know that by finding the stairs, leaving the building, and traveling down that path that I know is mine to walk I am leaving something that is safe, and I may never see the people and things I love again. I am torn by this desire to see where that path goes. I have be told by others that it is safer to just stay in my room within my building, and within the worlds I know. The are only a few, but they have seen me go out and look at the path, they have watched me swim in the water outside, climb the mountain, and play in the trees. They understand that while many have tried to walk that path and returned, it is truly only mine to going out on and fully discover. I know there will be dangers, the unknown, beautiful places, new people, and eventually an end which represent the physical life. I also know there is a safe end where I am at. However then my mind looks beyond what I can see in the distance, it looks beyond my imagination which is an extrapolation of the things I have learned in the building I live. I even am able to see beyond the end of The Path that I know is mine to walk. In the darkness of the hallway I walked down I had visions of things I did not know of yet. Through my experiences in the many worlds I have lived in, I am able to connect these visions with my imagination of the journey along The Path, and the universe I see at the end has limitless possibilities. I know there is no permanence. And while I can choose to live in singularity where I am, in the room at the end of the hallway within the building, I know what is mine to do, and that by walking The Path I am achieving my destiny. #SelfActualization #TrueFreedom #Enlightenment #ThePath #TheUniverse #MyGuardians #TheCreator
Posted on: Sat, 22 Mar 2014 08:25:17 +0000
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