We try to forget some people in life as they are too agonizing to even think about, but then Ive wondered if the feeling of pain, this dreadful ache, does it really go away from our head forever? I think the truth is we get used to it, it becomes easier to live with that pain inside us, it becomes much uncomplicated and effortless as this pain is now a part of us. One morning you wake up, and that person is not the first thing in your head like it used to be. And then a few months down the line, you realize you’ve made it through half the day without thinking of that one. Many times it takes months, sometimes years, but eventually you reach a point when you only think about them occasionally. You manage to do this because you don’t see them, you don’t hear about them, and you try not to think about them, finally you are in charge of your thoughts. Days and years later you stand at the corner of the street and someone will casually brush past you. In a matter of seconds, all the memories come flooding back, everything reloads back into your system, souvenirs of the past coming back to you like a hurricane. Rattling of unexpected events that you battled to forget, just visiting you like needless guests. You turn around to see that person you wished you closed chapters with, your knees wobble, hands tremble, you recall the moonlight, the starry sky, the changing season, the hopes, dreams, despair and wishes and how you used to rejoice every time you see that face and you freeze. And all your old memories running out of your hiding place, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer you tried to forget, kept locked deep inside is now back into your head. You explode from the insides and freeze while you relive your pain and memories for one more second, and then you walk away like nothing happened. You walk away like a warrior realizing that feeling of pain does not burn your insides like before, but that pain is now your driving force, your energy to live life further without someone you always thought you cant live without - J Blog Link - wp.me/p4Njor-5c
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 16:39:12 +0000
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